Jom Happy!

Kata orang, hidup macam roda yang berputar. Sekejab di atas. Sekejab di bawah.

Duh! Boring gila kan bila mana orang lain menujukan perumpamaan-perumpamaan seperti ini kepada kita. Seolah-olah mahu menyenangkan hati kita. Memujuk hati kita. Kan?

Ya. Ya. Kita tahu semua itu. Tak payah cuba-cuba nak pujuk. Kita tahu. Kan? (Egonyaaa..)

Bukan ego. Sebenarnya, kita hanya mahu orang memujuk hati kita yang parah ini, dengan cara menggembirakan kita. Bukan dengan mengeluarkan pepatah-pepatah yang kita dah hafal dari dulu lagi.

Kita dalam hidup ini, semuanya ada masalah. Tak ada orang dalam dunia ini tak ada masalah. Semua orang ada.

Tapi, ketepikan semuanya itu, kerana memikirkannya juga menyakiti hati, dan penyelesaian masih belum ditemui.

Tidak bermakna kita tak boleh happy!

27 Dresses! Awin, Lin dan Sya. Pergi tengok movie ini. Lepas tu komen kat blog. Boleh kan? :-) Thank sweeties~ Mwah!

from hot to cold

for the first time after working with the new company, i have time to actually stretch my limbs and muscles and sorts (konon).

so bizarre, that my companies are those whom i never thought of getting together with.

we went to this lake near our office in cyberjaya. with the most breath-taking view i've ever seen (lin & sya, tempat kita menggedik kat cyberjaya tu dah jadi super duper chantek okay!!). subhanallah. it was so beautiful, with cool breeze and the sun was about to set. very the kodak moment.

today has been a great day. everybody was so energetic that you can feel the positive aura out of them. including me. although last night was so disappointing.

we had this on going argument that never seems to end. i have become bolder and bolder, i talk back, and i guess it's just a matter of time before either of us erupts.

the best solution that i can think of is to get away from here as far as i could.
any opening job outside asean region?

to be honest, i am disappointed with a lot of people. you guys hurt me like i am some kind of a punching bag or something. is it because i care too much or because i am a punching bag and it just won't change?

or is it because you know how fragile i can be and you decided to test my sanity by coming in and out from my life?

why? why me in the first place?

this, would be the deepest, hurt-est scar, ever.

that warm bed

kak, don't feel so bad. whatever it is, i'm here for you :)

***

imagine this.

when you know that the world is somehow against you, you feel as low as the bottom of the ocean. you sneak out of the house in the middle of the night, get into your lover's bed, kiss him on his cheek while he's sound asleep, and position yourself under his arm pit, hugging his body tight.

because for some weird reason, that is the safest place for you to be.

People Say

When it hurt the most, it become bitter.

In my case. I become cruel and evil.

landslide?

na ja, ich sehe nur Wolken am Himmel. schade *sigh*.
keine Panik! (:p)

ich muss dringend mit ihm sprechen.
ich habe mich verfahren..

was stimmt nicht mit mir??

I aint...

I Aint No Gwen Stefani
I Aint No Dutchess Fergie
Stop
Comparin Me To Nobody
Cuz I Aint Tryin To B Nobody
Im No Nelly Furtado
And I
Aint Beyonce Knowles
I Kno U Aint Kno Me Well
But Jes So U
Kno Tha Names Che'nelle

Tu lagu Che'Nelle This is why I'm hot.
Orang lain terasa hati;
Orang lain yang merajuk.
Saya, saya.
Saya tak boleh jadik orang lain.
Jangan jadikan saya macam orang lain.
Sebab awak pun tak suka kalau saya buat awak macam tu.

people happy

dear mr. bubbly,

we'll talk about that when you finally have the time. don't feel comfortable talking about it here.
don't lose your trust on me just yet.


***

jeles? bite me :p

sanctuary, 22/03

"saya g.a.g.a.l. menjadi mak-buah yang bertanggungjawab"

jalan-mati

"diluah mati emak, ditelan mati bapak"

Not in!

Longkang.

Kau cerita dengan aku longkang mana yang cantik dipandang?

Rata-ratanya jelik kan?



Aku tengok tersembul mata dia tengok ke satu arah

"Not my fault, I'm not ask for that" Hujah bela diri

"Yeah right!" Hujan benam pembelaan sinis.

2 minggu lepas, mata aku pulak tersembul. Bukan tersembul galak tapi jelik amat.

Kalau lelaki tengok longkang, agak seronok kan?
But belief me bila perempuan tengok longkang boleh muntah hijau. Lagi jelik bila tengok longkang kat pasar pudu yang tersumbat.

Dude, kalau nak pakai jeans low cut pun plzzz wear boxer la weih. No women will turn on to see ur longkang!

owh, ini tak bermakna aku support perempuan yang prasan bangga tayang longkang ek. Pls! It's not in at all!!!

aku & sunway

jom dating dengan aku.

call me. aku kat sunway sepanjang weekend. yang mana rasa-rasa nak buang masa lepak-lepak or tengok movie, titot-titot la aku eh. tapi kena terima seadanya yang anak-anak buah aku mungkin akan mengekot je mak buah derang ni ha.

what to do..

:p

mario & luigi

i wanted to watch CSI but i'm not so sure if my eyes are going to let me. nak buat macam mana kan, dah nama pun bayi-tua-bangka. haruslah tido awal. he he.

so i was going through my browser's bookmark dan terjumpa kembali nostalgia dolu-dolu. i got addicted to crimson room punya game, dan macam-macam room la yang aku main sampai sanggup bersengkang mata until 5 a.m. in the morning. gila tak?

tension kan nak keluar dari biliks-biliks itu? but fear not! cheating has always been the only way to win! kan kan kan? hahahaha. bila dah menang tu, langsung tak rasa bersalah sebab cheat. lagi kembang kempis hidong sebab menang ada laaaaaaaa..

but nothing beats the classic super mario punya game, zaman-zaman micro genius dulu. peh. playstation boleh blah la. masuk paip keluar paip, satgi kena berenang lah, naik kacang panjang, berenang, ya rabbi champion sungguh aku.

and i remember the time bila mak aku buat amukan puaka sebab tv rosak, akibat daripada bermain game mario secara hebat. sanggup tak makan okay semata-mata nak menang rescue princess punya pasal!

ha'ah. pernah jugak anak pakcik khalid ni bangun tengah-tengah malam, jalan jengket-jengket, pelan-pelan sebab nak main game. kalau bising konpem kena sound dengan mak! pastu bila dengar bunyi tapak kaki dalam bilik mak, cepat-cepat tutup tv dan berpura-pura tidak bernafas. ataupun buat-buat pergi dapur nak minum konon. cet.

bestnya jadi kanak-kanak kan? maaaaaainnnn je keje!

me & you

between the realm of two lines, my message is simple & straight.

"sometimes i don't call like i don't care at all. but secretly, you're the only thing that lifts me up and makes me smile when i'm unhappy.. all you gotta do is call and suddenly things don't really seem so bad at all.."

sorry. the mariah-carey in me is still strong and i can't help myself from imagining i'm her *eh tiba-tiba keluar bunyik cengkerik*. in a very weird kind of way.

plus, my boss promised to drag me to the gym and turn me into a miss-universe. what a dream. har har :p

a colleague took some pictures of the office for some official business. guess whose face is the most outstanding?

mine.

because he just HAD to point the camera and i was like merenyih keji dan paling putih because flash dekat muka gua. i mean, if the photos are meant for official stuff, kena lah berlakon rajin, berdedikasi membuat kerja ritttteeeeee???

oh not me. an hour later, financial controller called me up and laughing her ass out loud as she was figuring why on hell did i pose like that.

hello. i wasn't ready ok. and it is my nature la to pose merenyih macam tu. trademark tau! and i know she'll miss me once i'm relocated to cyberjaya 2 weeks from now. hihihi. truth to be told, i'm gonna miss her too. although she's chinese tapi dah rasa macam my own sister pulak. she taught me a lot of things, ESPECIALLY when it comes to relationship & marriage.

i end this post with a song from mariah carey again - "don't forget about us".
just don't okay :)

because i definitely won't.

Pukul berapa Dato' Harimau

(harimau pun terima anugerah dari Sultan sebab tu dia pakai gelaran Dato') Kekekekeke...

Pukul 3 pagi, Dato' Harimau...

Errk... buat apa pukul 3 pagi? 3 pagi, dinihari... menguaplah jawapannya!



Eh, labu... apa aku merepek ni?

Mencari yang hilang

Mood... oOoOoo mood...

Manalah mood nak buat kerja ni pergi?


Mac sudah masuk hari ketiga. Kalau sebelum ini saya berharap bulan Mac cepatlah menjelma... Namun, saat ini... saya berdoa agar hari tidak berganjak pantas. Biar lambat asal selamat! Hihihi, yelah tu!

Kecut dah perut ni bila memikirkan tinggal beberapa hari saja lagi April akan menjelma. Oh, persiapan belum lagi dibuat! Semuanya masih tergantung, masih tiada penamat!

Eh, eh... bulan 4? Alamak!!! Induksi pula... haiyaaaaa....

Lost

Kadang-kadang too much lost in life buat kita dah tak ada rasa apa-apa tentang apa jua yang kita lost sekarang atau masa akan datang.

Atau,

Jadi phobia gila dengan lost. Paranoid! Duh!!

Exhale.

Then, let it go. Let it go, by flow.. Walau, separuh nafas dibawa bersama pergi..

Happy!

I've a good news. But won't share it here... Lalalalalal

Nanti bila dah benar-benar dan betul-betul confirm, then I will spill it out loud.

Tak sabar. Membilang hari, waktu dan detik. But, first waiting for elections to end, which is on 8 of March. By that, beban kerja dah kurang sedikit *cross my finger* Optimist!

Then, waiting for April to come... *winking* Surprise, surprise...


No... not that... itu you all dah tahu dah.

Workaholic?

I've been neglected to update any entries on this blog for the past... *thinking* not sure. Sorry for that. Tapi aku benar-benar-betul-betul sibuk. At this hour, 4.17 am, aku masih di pejabat. Yep, for the past whole week until for another 2 weeks. My office is officially my home. *Sigh*

Balik sekejap, kemudian masuk semula ke pejabat. Kerja dan kerja. Workaholic? Nope-not at all. Tapi have-to atas arahan. Ngedate pun terpaksa curi-curi. Kalau tak ada yang merajuk nanti, lagi susah nak pujuk *grin*



Pst... korang, lama giler kita tak keluar beronggeng, berfotogedik, melepak-lepak dan meluahkan perasaan, kan? Rindulah kat korang! Bila kita nak g Pavillion lagi dan menghabiskan masa beratur di J.Co? Hari tu memborong di fastlane je... Teringin gak beratur beramai-ramai macam orang lain. Hihihihi....

Inilah sebabnya kalau kau terikat dengan komitmen yang melampau setiap bulan

Ya, aku plastesin.
Ye, aku alien.
Eh tak, macam je. Bukan betul-betul.

Tapi aku tak suka jadik plastik.
Terasa sangat sumbang sumbingnya bila aku jadik plastik.
Susahkan kalau terpaksa.

greedy

Tamak. Apa itu tamak?

Dulu satu tika aku pernah di sogok dua hal yg aku idam-idamkan sangat dalam satu masa yang serentak. Aku fikir-fikir timbang kati. Aku tolak satu aku ambil satu. Aku tak nak tamak kata pada diri pada orang-orang lain yang aku mintak pendapat. Semua orang itu agak kecewa aku lepas kan peluang 'periuk nasi' yang agak lumayan semata-mata untuk 'hati'. Akhir nya aku melopong hilang kedua-dua nya. Bodoh kan? Padan muke aku hahahah...

Tahun ini, dari awal tahun ini aku hadap situasi yang hampir sama. Yang tak serupanya, 'periuk nasi' aku bagai di pinjam 'orang' dan 'orang itu' tengah berfikir untuk pulangkan atau tidak. Dan secara tidak semena-mena main-main 'kacang pagoda' bertukar arah sedikit demi sedikit ke sesuatu 'hati' nyata. Yeah I got something and something else gone away for a while.



Kacau jiwa aku. Kali ini aku nak dua-dua. Aku nak 'periuk nasi' aku itu kembali. Aku nak juga 'kacang pagoda' yang bertukar jadi hati itu. Ya, aku nak tamak sebab dulu aku tak tamak aku hilang dua-dua. Sekarang aku nak tamak sebab dah sampai masanya aku fikirkan pasal diri aku.

Time is running and I dont know how much oxygen left for me to catch all those thing for myself. As far as I know, tak salah kan this time aku nak tamak. Tak kira tamak dalam kes aku nie tamak yang terukkan? Aku tamak untuk diri aku bukan kacau orang lain pun kan. Orang lain boleh tamak kenapa tidak aku?

Last not least, pray for the better hope for best.