Thursday, December 22, 2011

I Want Me Back

I need new escapism. Serius. Blog mygj tu rasa macam malas nak update. Asyik update pasal anak je. Boleh bosan semua orang.

I know I already change my status to mom. But somehow I feel blogging about me, child, family, is sooooo not me. Pelik ni. Hmm.

I need to write. Sama macam dulu. Idea mencurah-curah. But. Bila pergi kat dashboard. Semua hilang. Damn! I've been curse lah!

Yes. I do have family now. Nice husband. Handsome and cranky son. Oh my~ Its totally change me 360 degree. But. I missed my old days. I miss blogging about my thought, my observation, my passionate, my craziness.

But I guess. You win some, you'll lose some. :-(

And what I've miss the most?

My crazy friends here. :-p


Monday, November 21, 2011

!

last friday, the reality hit me real hard in the face. not that i'm in denial all this while, but hearing from another party makes it harder. the thing is, when people start to hate you, they'll find every reason to do so. it's so sad. tapi macam semua orang selalu cakap, life goes on..





i'm still standing. pedulikan lah yang lain.

Monday, November 14, 2011

and the winner goes to..

hmm. aku kecik hati betul kalau bila aku cakap elok-elok, tapi dibalas macam sampah. aku tak paham tapi memang ada je orang yang macam ni. in which aku rasa, "duuuhhhh!" sangat.

ok takpe. suka hati u ols lah.

jangan sampai satu masa nanti ai fedap. pastu ai malas dah nak layan. seriyes, time aku baik, aku layankan aje. esok-esok aku dah bosan, plis la jangan cari aku lagi. okkey? deal?

*kecik hati*

*merajuk*



*ok aku gedik hahaha. ok tak jadi merajuk. ai cool jek*

Sunday, November 13, 2011

i should burn your name in an open fire.

the other day while i was busy with my new toy, i did something despicable. aku try bbm ycp tapi tak ada respond sebab aku tegedik nak share benda tu dengan dia. kalau dia tau ni, konfem dia tekejut. she was the one yang dok sebelah aku kat mcd, nangis sama-sama, and her situation pun lebih kurang macam aku so yes, she understands.

so aku bbm kak amyz. saja. sumpah. i did it out of curiosity and ok i dapat dah jawapan yang i nak. cukup lah. i tak akan buat macam tu lagi.

lagipun, benda dah berlalu. buang masa aku.

now aku nak concentrate on my future project. hopefully boleh kaya lepas ni.

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

part of the list - neyo

ambik lah. biar saya undur diri.








moga korang happy.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

bila?

soalan demi soalan.








tapi bilakah jawapannya?

Saturday, October 15, 2011

sesungguhnya masa..

6 tahun yang lalu, saya tidak berhenti-henti berdoa.




betul. masa penentu segalanya.



sebenarnya, tak henti-henti mulut ni mengucapkan terima kasih. terima kasih kerana sekurang-kurangnya saya diberi peluang.




timing, is very essential.

Sunday, October 9, 2011

do it.

dear you,

i think you have been with yourself for far too long now. give some hopeless-romantic-girl (like me, ha ha) a chance to make you happy.


let somebody in. you deserve to be loved. to be cared of.


sekali-sekala, turunkan sikit ego tu. call someone, ask her out, have fun.

i wrote this because i care.


- d -

Monday, September 26, 2011

hohohoh!

aku antara orang-orang yang takde la up-to-date sangat when it comes to music player in my laptop/pc.

aku still pakai windows media player. haha. old skool bebeh.

selalunya i will put it on shuffle mode.

dan everytime dia berbunyik lagu "coba katakan" (sung by maliq & d'essentials), seboleh-bolehnya aku skip. pedih weh. isk isk isk.


ok lah. bye.

Monday, August 8, 2011

Ohmaii..

Si darwina rajin post plak kat sini.

Akak ni, bukan tak nak update. Semuanya kena block. Keji oke. Terpaksa guna modem utk publish semua entri. Arghh.

Stress ok. Stress!

Selamat berpuasa adik2. Muahs!

Miss you guys a lot!

Sunday, August 7, 2011

por qe?

dalam banyak-banyak perkara gila yang melanda dunia sekarang ni, aku cuma nak tanya satu soalan saja.






kalau kau dah dilahirkan islam, why the hell kau nak murtad, or kengkonon nak convert ke agama lain? seriyes aku tak paham.


Friday, August 5, 2011

salam ramadhan.

kadang aku perhati, gelagat manusia, gelagat kawan-kawan, gelagat segala makhluk, buat aku berfikir..




tertunaikah janji-janji yang korang pernah lafazkan kat diri sendiri dulu?




hmm..

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

my latest affection.

enjoy my favourite song, sweet october by cik najwa.




i love singing this song during shower. hahaha!

kawin misai.

cerita tak berapa nak penting yang nak aku tulis kat sini, esok adalah episod terakhir sinetron kahwin masal. hahahaha sejak bila gua layan sinetron??? sejak aku suka tengok agnes monica belakon. suuuwiiiitttt..

lepas ni, tak ada alasan lagi aku nak pecut keluar dari ofis 5.29pm. ahaks. jangan lepas ni ada sinetron best sudah. tapi aku jarang layan citer indon ni sebab too much drama dan sangatlah annoying. pffbbtt! tapi demi agnes monica, yes, aku gagah pecut 140km/j.

haha tipu tu.

anyway, aku bosan ni tau tak ha ha ha?? bosan. jumaat ni kena pergi ofis kat sd untuk sesi photo shoot. ikut hati, aku nak duduk belakang tabir je. baju kurung aku tak glam weh. mak malu. sob sob..

ok dah nak pukul 5.15. haha masa untuk mengemas. hahaha gila awal. kekentangaaaaannn!



Thursday, July 21, 2011

semangkuk.

aku mc. perut tak sedap. hasil side effects ubat-obatan yang aku amik sekarang. sucks. sebelum subuh tadi pun badan aku ada sikit panas. haih. macam-macam hal.

tapi bagus jugak. sebab harini game malaysia vs chelsea kan? mau bertarung aku nak redah jam kat bukit jalil tu karang. yes. hilang satu beban.

anyway..




bila la aku nak menang cash 200k ni.. *tongkat dagu*

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

haluuuu!

assalamualaikum!




*sapu sawang je ni*




malam karang kalau rajin i sambung conteng yek. muuaaahs!

Thursday, March 31, 2011

Bumps.

"Politic is some sort of dangerous adventure." As one of my beloved friend said to me when I ask about something terrible that happen to my hubby beberapa minggu kebelakangan ini.

Ya. Banyak perkara yang berlaku kebelakangan ini. Terlalu banyak. Each one of it beri kesan terhadap perjalanan hidup kami (me & hubby); mengubah persepsi terhadap orang-orang yang berada di sekeliling kami.

Along that, I've lost trust & respect towards certain people. Orang kita ingatkan selama ini yang menyokong dan ingin membantu. But, apparently his intention was... to used others as his stepping stones.

Betul-betul tak sangka!

Sampaikan aku rasa sangat bersalah terhadap my husband. Iyalah, if it is not me who ask him to help, tentu dia bahagia kat tempat lama dia. Tentu perkara-perkara seperti sekarang ini tidak berlaku. For sure we don't have to face this kind of problem; masalah yang telah memburukkan reputasi dan kredebiliti dia.

I didn't foresee that. Or maybe, I just couldn't believe what others has told me until it really happened to us. And it happened.

Lesson learned. Pengajaran yang telah merobek reputasi, kredibiliti dan maruah dia. Pengajaran yang telah mengkucar-kacirkan perjalanan hidup kami. Pengajaran yang telah mengganggu-gugat emosi kami. No, it is not about third party in our lovely-marriage life. Sumpah. Lillahi-Ta'ala.

Ianya berkenaan sesuatu yang tidak boleh dinyatakan di sini. Cukuplah kalau hanya aku tahu, kami tahu, kamu tahu, Allah tahu.

And abang, I'm sorry. I didn't think that, that man could do so much damaged on you, psychologically & emotionally. Sabar dan yakinlah bahawa Allah sedang merencanakan sesuatu untuk kita, insya-Allah. Amin.



Word of wisdom:
People never lie so much as after a hunt, during a war or before an election.


"Segala komen yang diberikan adalah atas tanggungjawab sendiri. Penulis tidak bertanggungjawab terhadap sebarang persepsi/komen/pendapat atau apa-apa sahaja perkara yang berkaitan yang disampaikan oleh orang lain."