LOVE

Songs
Album My happy life by Tom-pi ada lagu L-O-V-E. Aku dah dengar versionnya mula-mula masa LnL Jazz session last year. Tapi aku lagi prefer Natalie Cole yang dendang. Lebih seksi lebih soul.

Movie
Love pada aku tak sampai sangat macam CINTA. Tapi sinetografi dua-dua bagus. Paling aku suka scene mula-mula kat padang ke sawah ntah. Comel sangat. Dalam banyak-banyak aku suka watak budak kecik as Autistic child. She great!
Aku tengah perah otak ingat balik quote dalam filem LOVE yang ditutur oleh Rama pada Iin (feeling2 nama gwe sebab skali imbas baca substitle nampak macam nama gwe hahahahah).

Bunyi maksudnya lebih kurang
"Kita tak boleh putus asa hari ini, kerna esok tidak tahu lagi apa yang akan terjadi"

Kiranya skrip ganti tuturan sharifah A'mani pada Pi*erre An*dre
"Kalau kita nak mesti ada cara"

Kawan aku kata pada aku, love punya miraclenya sendiri. Dan kita perlu percaya pada itu.
Miracle ek mek?? Kalau sembur perfume miracle hari-hari peratusan miracle tu meningkat tak?? hahahahahah

i promise

will i always be there for you. when you need someone. will i be that one you need. will I do all my best to to protect you. when the tears get near your eyes. will i be the one that's by your side.

will i be there when you call me in the middle of the night. will i keep the rain from fallin down into your life. i promise, i promise. i promise i will..

will i take tender care of you. take your darkest night. and make it bright for you. will i be there to make you strong. and to lean on. when this world has turned so cold. will i be the one that's there to hold.

will i be there when you call me in the middle of the night. will i keep the rain from falling down into your life. i promise, i promise. i promise, i promise. i promise i will, yeah.

and i love you more every day. and nothing will take that love away. when you need someone. i'll promise i'll be there for you. there for you..

will i be there when you call me in the middle of the night. will i keep the rain from falling down into your life. i promise, i promise. i promise i will..

- [i. p.r.o.m.i.s.e. - staci oricco]

i do. and i promise.

:)

.mad.sexy.cool.is.us.

oh god. it's 1 a.m. and i am trying to crack my head real hard here so that i can finish my work and go to sleep (plus it's raining and cold, oh my *sigh*).

some of us, yes, are not at our best. and some of us, hmm, are pretending real hard to be at our best. well, one way or another, prozac seems to be a very good idea at this moment, am i wrong?

nah. just a stupid late-night joke.

but just look at us now, girls. we've grown up, facing whatever there is in our lives, hoping for the best out of it and we're back on track. i know. we're those women who can never possibly end our drama just like that. you know what i mean?

every each of us. i swear that we're like in a movie or something :p. not sex & the city. though i would kill anything to have carrie's manolo blahnik. hi hi. we're just women; with needs, dreams, expectations & love.

it's ok to fall in love. or even to fall out of love. it happens. it's ok to fail in life, as success actually comes from it. it's ok if you suck in doing what you do. and it sure is ok if people just don't get us. i mean hey, never in a million years, they will find other women like us. that's why we're stuck with each other :p (ok la tu kan? hihihi)

my point is, don't worry. for every tragedy that befalls on each of us, we're going to make it. have faith. everything takes time. we just have to lay back, keep being ourselves, keep smiling and insyaAllah.. if it's God's will, the table will turn. mark my word :)

truth to be told, i fall into that 'pretending' category. because i've promised myself not to get carried away with my emotions. gonna stay cool no matter what. walaupun kegelabahan tu tetap menjadi trademark. hahahahahahaha!

korang jangan sedih-sedih ek. kita kan ada. nanti kita bawak korang makan eskrem.

ok lah. kerja tak siap-siap lagi. dah la takde idea. mata dah berat. katil dah panggil-panggil. esok konfem muka hancur. mata menjadi semakin sepet. adeh..

I'M NOT PERFECT! BUT I'M SPECIAL

Pakcik-pakcik yang drive cab kat area rumah aku memang bess. Bukan je memudahkan aku dengan bayaran cab yg murah dan untungkan mereka, tapi bila berborak dengan mereka ada saja yang buat aku berfikir, ingatkan aku mengenai sesuatu dan lawak-lawak mereka yang buat aku gelak kecil datang tepat pada masa-masa yang memang aku perlukan.

Aku tidur malam tadi dengan marah dan hati yang agak sebal.
Aku bangun pagi tadi dengan mood yang macam puaka celanat.
Seriously, tiada palit senyum walau sedicit.

Naik cab seperti biasa.

"Dek, pintu tak rapat"
Aku buka dan hempas pintu kuat
"Takpe takyah takut hempas je kuat-kuat, tak minum pagi lagi kan?"
"A'aa memang betul sangat pakcik"
Dia gelak aku gelak.
Tak kelakar pada kau yang baca, tapi cukup la bagi aku yang berangin.
Sekurang-kurangnya angin lintang kurang sedikit.
Terima kasih pakcik driver teksi!!!

*****
Dear,

I'm not prefect. I'm just normal person who struggle to full fill ur wish, desire and pleasure. I do work hard on it. For you, for me, for both of us. But U turn me off when every day you keep criticizes me. U really, really, really, really, really turn off me baby.

I'm good in karma but I dont want to do it at you. Coz I'm sure U'll regret it. So Please accept who I am as I do accept you. Coz FYI, I'm looking for TALL, DARK AND HANDSOME. But I end up stuck on you. Give me one bloody reason why should I stay rather than walk away from you!

p/s: mind my word and honesty. Coz I damn tired with ur words.

Their happy life

Saya dapat call.
Muke best boyfren no 1 terpapar.
Macam biasa suara garau, tapi kali ini sikit lain.
Macam ada sedikit hiba. Saya berdebar.
Mungkin terasa janggal dia cuba berjenaka.
Saya gelak macam biasa.
Dia tambah lagi.


"Ko baru jadik makcik, dah tak bleh kak lin dah"



Baby boy. 11 pagi 21 Apr 08.
Hiba dia pindah pada saya melalui talian telefon.
Saya senyum dalam hiba. I'm happy for him.
Tapi saya tak tau napa saya hiba. Masih lagi rasa.

Congrats To Inspektor Sahab Wad and Ms Eja Wad.

My pray for their happinest come from each breath of mine.

*****

I found that love was more

Than just holding hands...

Could u pls make me understand what's going on rite now! Coz I'm starting to feel tired.

wasiat *bluekkk*

Hello!

My dearest good+great friends, I'm happy to see both of you happy. Eh, including kak Amyz... so it'll be the 3 of you lah kan? Hehehe... sorry kak Amyz ;) Ampun!

Kak Amyz, saya tidak tahu apa yang berlaku. Tapi saya dapat rasakan sesuatu. Apa pun jua situasi yang akak hadapi sekarang ini, saya doakan agar semuanya selamat. Be strong! Hidup ini tidak akan indah tanpa warna-warni pelangi cabaran dan dugaan. Anggap sahaja pengalaman ini sebagai pembakar semangat untuk lebih berani dan tabah! Hey, good luck for your final exam!

Cik Blur Clairvoyance, aku harap kau bahagia dengan pilihan hidup kau. You know that I'll always pray for you happiness, right? ;) Ala, kalau setakat gaduh-gaduh sikit tu, janganlah freak-out gegila plak. Aku tahu kita ni drama queen, but don't be soooo dramatic! Heheheh... Kau tu, kalau dia tanya soalan pelik-pelik je mulalah gelabah macam labah-labah *bluekk*

Cik Butterflyb.l.u, hehehehe... the same goes with you. I'll always pray for you happiness! Jangan selalu gaduh dengan... you know who. Nanti awak juga yang stress, kan? Awak tahukan, stress tak elok untuk kesihatan mental awak! Hahaha...

Oklah, korang... I'm going to Kulim for the whole week! Starting today (April 21) until April 27. Pastu kan, korang jangan jeles tau... kalau jadi lah kan, kan, kan... 2 - 4 Mei, I'll be in Perhentian, continue 5 - 9 Mei pula kat Berserah, Cherating! *Lalalala...*

Signing Off!

17 days of love

dearest you,

tak apa lah kalau you tak perfect. if semua orang dalam dunia ni perfect, maknanya angga or reymee tu kat hujung jari i jelah. and i'm no angelina jolie or nicole kidman pun.

but trust me, if perfection is all i seek, i won't be saying how i feel about you in the first place. and love is a cosmic thing. that, i know for sure.

i have never been this precise tau. the next step is totally your call. any other way pun is fine with me. and for the whole entire journey of mine last night, while listening to that maliq's song, i saw only one face in my head and it made me smile and smile and smile.

to tell you the truth, this is the sort of conversation that i usually avoid because huh.. hmm. i'm not that fond of admitting what i feel. in this case, lagi laaaaaa.

so yeah. never say that this is going to be easy but since it's the path that i choose to walk on, i better gear up for every season then - be it winter, summer, autumn or fall. or you nak tambah apa-apa season ribut tahap petala kelapan? silakan. he he.

it's ok if you don't feel the same way. you still make me smile no matter what. and that's what matters :)

i may not know you thru-and-thru but what i know for now is enough for me to see how incredible you are. other people may not see you the same way so tu lantak la kat diorang kan. my story anyway hahahaha gila eksyen :p

how long this will last? for as long as it's there. kalau i'm going through this by myself, sooner or later i'll have to let you go and move on. if vice versa, hehehehe insya-Allah. tersengih-sengih la i hari-hari.

love. is weird. haih.

by the way, macam biasa, happy becoming birthday. you are in my prayer. always..

18 days of love

what is it that i hate most?

to actually fall in love and to believe that love is in fact beautiful, regardless whether it's a one-way or a two-way thing.

you don't have to love me back. to love you is like painting the world with beautiful colors. i don't feel hurt at all because everything is so perfect.

and so are you :)

please, dig this song.

[dia - maliq & d'essentials]

temukan apa arti di balik cerita
hati ini terasa berbunga-bunga
membuat seakan aku melayang terbuai asmara.. oh

adakah satu arti di balik tatapan
tersipu malu akan sebuah senyuman
membuat suasana menjadi nyata
begitu indahnya..

dia..
seperti apa yang selalu ku nantikan, aku inginkan

dia.. oh
melihatku apa adanya, seakan ku sempurna

tanpa bual kata tercuri hatiku
dia tunjukkan dengan tulus cintanya
terasa berbeda saat bersamanya
aku jatuh cinta..

dia..
seperti apa yang selalu ku nantikan, aku inginkan

dia..
melihatku apa adanya, seakan ku sempurna

dia..
seperti apa yang selalu ku nantikan, aku inginkan

dia..
melihatku apa adanya, seakan ku sempurna

dia bukakan pintu hatiku yang lama tak bisa
percayakan cinta hingga dia di sini
memberi cintaku harapan

dia..
seperti apa yang selalu ku nantikan, aku inginkan

oh dia..
melihatku apa adanya, seakan ku sempurna

dia..
seperti apa yang selalu ku nantikan, aku inginkan

oh dia..
melihatku apa adanya, seakan ku sempurna

give me your love, give me your love now
so come on and love me, come on and love me

give me your love, give me your love now
so come on and love me, come on and love me


(ask me for the song anytime)

I would tell the world when you give your love to me

Dia...Seperti apa yang s’lalu ku nantikan
Aku inginkan
Dia...Melihatku apa adanya
Seakan kusempurna, hey yeah



(Give me your love)(Give me your love)
(Now so come on and love me)
(Come on and love me)(Give me your love)
(Give me your love)

Since Ah Win already mention Maliq & D'Essentials (read as angga) buat dia pengsan(again!) so this the beuty groovy rythm.......

19 days of love

how time flies by.

as for today, no volley ball session (deng!). i was bored that i almost jumped out of the window. entah mengapa aku berkata begitu aku pun tak tau. bengong la ni namanya *sigh*.

but anyway, hehehe, finally i got my hands on the latest CD of maliq & d'essentials called 'repackaged'. huiyo. gila nak pengsan. dah la tinggal satu. ada 2 lagu baru and the first track dah buat aku rasa macam "aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh..". yerp. lepas tu pengsan sekejap. nasib ada lin. hahahaha.

angga. my love..

please la anybody yang nak pergi indon tu, ku kirimi kerinduan eh nak kirim CD maliq & d'essentials semua sekali boleh tak??? boleh aarrrr..

tapikan korang, aku tak tau la apsal aku masih lagi mengalami sindrom kelaparan tak terhingga 2-3 menjak ni. aku rasa luar biasa sangat okeh. ada 'benda halus' kaa dalam perut aku? ke sebab terkenan dek ofismet yang pregnant tu? gila babas!!

nanti aku kaji kemisterian ini. jimbooooooo! *tiba-tiba*.

20 days of love

started the day off by buying nasi lemak, karipap & donuts. yeah. whatever i eat is my own business. ceh gila poyo :p

i feel no love lah today. because i'm drained? yelah kot. where's that bubbly me???? ayoyo come back la. i cannot be like this forever ma. nguap, nguap je kerja. isk. no mood, don't feel like being productive at all, i'm practically a sleepy head. deng.

tu lah pasalnya kena ada 'daya tarikan' untuk ke office. and so far, none is like so gempak gila sampai buat aku rasa macam nak tido opis. hahahahaha.

but to be in cybertron is so damn cool. i like the serenity of cyberjaya. i fell in love with everything here. what more can i ask? hehehe. oh okay, we may need a mcd, starbucks, or perhaps nando's? since me & syuk are crazy about it.

is it a good idea if i buy a house here in cyberjaya? the one facing the lake? macam cool gila kan?

oh. there's still some love today. love for that house :)

21 days of love

well, just as i expected, sometime in the afternoon i was 'needed' in sunway. hahaha poyo je bunyik. betul apa, because there weren't enough network cable lah, switch lah, so i became the runner la kan.

memula lepak with the guys kat subway. then mr. boss called and asked me to watch for his things and some notebooks sebab dia nak lunch with his friend.

dah nguap sejuta kali jugak la. until syuk got a call. bla bla bla, suddenly syuk said, "ha nanti h**** naik". uik. itu pun nak bagitau aku ek. tapi dalam hati memang lah sedikit excited. hahahahaha.

so, mr. bachelor number one arrived shortly after. pastu i don't remember how both of us just sat outside the hall, talking and chatting about some stuff. about his girlfriend, football, macam-macam lah. it was great. but then only i knew that he is a year younger than me. oh. hmm. okay.

the workshop went so well, that i could see my boss' face lighten up. he needs that badly as for the past week, he was unhappy about some things. kasihan. i thought of leaving early tapi rupanya ada meeting pula selepas itu.

so there i was, having a business meeting on my own for the first 15 minutes (mati tak??). the room was so damn cold, and my boss noticed the 'unwell' look on my face. maunya tak, kuku dah pepel-pepel. i felt like almost pengsan already sebab kesejukan tahap dewa. serious ok. tak drama.

but after that, makan kat tony roma's, terus la sihat kan :p

hmm.. anyway, while i was in sunway, i think bachelor number two must've gone to cybertron. isk. melepas. all this tiring stuff kan, can go away kalau dapat tengok muka dia sekejap. hahahahahahahaha keji tak??? i heard that he has gone botak. mesti cute.

24 days of love

no bachelor today. hangout dengan laki orang ada la. which was also fun. penat aku gelak tak benti-benti. bengong itu olang!

bestnya kalau tau main stratocaster kan.

ok dah ngantuk.

still 25 days of love

latest update.

bachelor number one - dah ada girlfren (deng.).
bachelor number two - suka perempuan rupa macam wardina (ceh!).

ok. mana laa bachelor number three, four, five.. *sigh*

25 days of love

hari jumaat yang sangat jumaat. lapar je rasa. pagi-pagi dah hujan. hehe.

tak sangka pulak bachelor number one datang office aku tadi. tokojuit den. hehehe. tapi masa siang tu memang dia busy je buat kerja depan pc. kerja aku langsung takleh nak buat sebab satu, aku sakit kepala dah berhari-hari. dua, aku rasa malas sangat tak tau la apsal. tiga, kenapa perut aku asyik lapar je ek? hahahaha sadis.

si *ez* (bukan nama sebenar) tak habis-habis usik aku. apa la. tah-tah mamat tu dah ada girlfriend. worse, dah kahwin pun. tak baik tau.

so aku dok bergugel jela dgn *ez*, gelak macam setan, gedik-gedik nak mampos. sumpah aku tekanan perasaan sebenarnya sebab tu jadi macam tu kot?

dah petang, aku vakum ofis sebab esok ada training. wah rajin ni. hehe. ekceli dok tunggu jugak kalau-kalau bachelor number two datang ke tapi tinggal harapan jelaaahhh..

pastu semua orang balik. aku pun dah siap calling-calling lin, nak ajak pergi mid valley. last-last kena cancel sebab bachelor number one & kawan aku tak ada kunci ofis. yelah. aku tunggu la korang. aku tukar baju sebab dah rimas pakai baju kurung, siap buat air, aku eksperimenkan biskut empat segi dengan menabur milo di atasnya dan bagi depa makan.

ha masa tu baru dapat interbiu dia. ehem. ok tak kawin lagi. tapi takan la takde gf ye tak? ringtone henpon dia lagu peberet aku. cewah. pastu borak-borak pasal keje, bla bla bla, pastu pulang.

adeh. ok la kan. mamat tu tinggi gila ok. kagum aku. hahahaha!

26 days of love

ehem ehem.

kitorang ada sports activity lepas kerja tadi so of course la seronok kan. hehe. we played volley ball walaupun aku langsung lah tak reti main. harem jek. hahaha. tetapi, ehem ehem, i was in the same team as bachelor number two.

peh and he was so damn good.
aku macam kagum.
dan terpesona (what the??!!).
hahahahaha.

and of course, our team won. wuhu!

lepas main, a few of us went for lepak dan minum kat terminal. ha including mr. bachelor number two. alahai.. his eyes were like so deep and bila dia tengok kita rasa macam terbakar (hahaha ok this part i exaggerate la kan).

dia tak la hensem but the way he carries himself is just so attractive in a way. patut la dia jejaka hot kat office.

dah la belanja kami minum tadi. hihihi. takpelah. aku ngoratkan untuk si d.n. la ek. macam sesuwai je. kih kih kih.

27 days of love

since tak ada bachelor yang available hari ni, so tak payah la cerita panjang-panjang. huhuhu.

28 days of love

now, now, now. bachelor number one did come to the office today. hehe. and he was so handsome. cewah. getik dah aku ni. tak borak sangat pun since he was working with something but i managed to buat kopi o untuk dia. hahaha.

but at the end of the day, came bachelor number two. jeng jeng jeng.

ok, i never really noticed him before sebab dia macam sangat penyengap, buat kerja sendiri and the only time that i spoke to him was when i wanted to borrow his lighter. dah tu terlupa sampai sudah, dah petang baru pulangkan. sheesh.

so yeah, he tegur me masa lunch kat cafe. blur jugak la aku sekejap kan. pastu petang sikit macam dia pun dah ok, mesra, and baru perasan yang mulut dia kinda sexy. adeh. sorry but i am telling the truth okay. he's so mysterious. menakutkan pun yer jugak kekadang tu.

tapi rupanya ramai juga perempuan-perempuan single di office ku ini yang berkenan sama ini olang. ceh. amik la. aku tak mau pun. tapi siyes dia sexy. nyam nyam.

itulah dia sedikit sebanyak pada hari ini. yey!

29 days of love

bachelor number one had gone to the other office. hahaha. what a joke! but thank God or else you-know-who would've definitely ejek-ejek dan siap nak ngoratkan untuk aku. cis. ada jugak orang macam ni ek (:p).

my shoes were killing me. and it just had to be today that i have to go grocery shopping untuk pantry office. baik tak aku? huuuu. dah la mid valley tu tempat aku paling trauma nak pergi sebab aku mesti lufer kat mana aku parking kereta. deng.

eh, before that, sempat la jumpa kak sempoii kat amcorp.

so okay, kembali ke rumah dengan selamat, and while i was trying to unload the things that i bought from the car, eh eh terjatuh puler kunci keretaku itu. lalu tiba-tiba terdengar suara manusia memecah kesunyian..

"hai kak! baru balik keje?".

ceh. dah tau tanya lagi. nasib ko ni comel. hahaha.

pastu ada la sedikit sebanyak dialog getik (dia ok, bukan aku). siap offer nak tolong bawakkan barang-barang aku la bagai. hahahaha wat derr heyyll??

hmm. first time ada actual conversation dengan jiran sebelah. bukan sebab sombong, dah derang tu bujang-bujang belaka, aku kan pemalu (ptuih!).

tapi betul laa. dia comel okay! (keji!)

30 days of love

a few acquaintances were complaining about me walling myself from men. am i? *confused*. indirectly je kot.

alright. i'll try to open up myself and let other people in.
after all, happiness is not a one-way thing kan?
this should be fun *ayat sedapkan hati*.

tomorrow, bachelor number one is coming to the office. we'll see if this really works. ya rabbi! bachelor number two, three, four nanti kita cari kat cafe ek. hahahaha.

bonus points to those who can actually sing all the songs from the 'sound of music'. and he better be straight.

*giggles*

Jom Happy!

Kata orang, hidup macam roda yang berputar. Sekejab di atas. Sekejab di bawah.

Duh! Boring gila kan bila mana orang lain menujukan perumpamaan-perumpamaan seperti ini kepada kita. Seolah-olah mahu menyenangkan hati kita. Memujuk hati kita. Kan?

Ya. Ya. Kita tahu semua itu. Tak payah cuba-cuba nak pujuk. Kita tahu. Kan? (Egonyaaa..)

Bukan ego. Sebenarnya, kita hanya mahu orang memujuk hati kita yang parah ini, dengan cara menggembirakan kita. Bukan dengan mengeluarkan pepatah-pepatah yang kita dah hafal dari dulu lagi.

Kita dalam hidup ini, semuanya ada masalah. Tak ada orang dalam dunia ini tak ada masalah. Semua orang ada.

Tapi, ketepikan semuanya itu, kerana memikirkannya juga menyakiti hati, dan penyelesaian masih belum ditemui.

Tidak bermakna kita tak boleh happy!

27 Dresses! Awin, Lin dan Sya. Pergi tengok movie ini. Lepas tu komen kat blog. Boleh kan? :-) Thank sweeties~ Mwah!

from hot to cold

for the first time after working with the new company, i have time to actually stretch my limbs and muscles and sorts (konon).

so bizarre, that my companies are those whom i never thought of getting together with.

we went to this lake near our office in cyberjaya. with the most breath-taking view i've ever seen (lin & sya, tempat kita menggedik kat cyberjaya tu dah jadi super duper chantek okay!!). subhanallah. it was so beautiful, with cool breeze and the sun was about to set. very the kodak moment.

today has been a great day. everybody was so energetic that you can feel the positive aura out of them. including me. although last night was so disappointing.

we had this on going argument that never seems to end. i have become bolder and bolder, i talk back, and i guess it's just a matter of time before either of us erupts.

the best solution that i can think of is to get away from here as far as i could.
any opening job outside asean region?

to be honest, i am disappointed with a lot of people. you guys hurt me like i am some kind of a punching bag or something. is it because i care too much or because i am a punching bag and it just won't change?

or is it because you know how fragile i can be and you decided to test my sanity by coming in and out from my life?

why? why me in the first place?

this, would be the deepest, hurt-est scar, ever.