from hot to cold

for the first time after working with the new company, i have time to actually stretch my limbs and muscles and sorts (konon).

so bizarre, that my companies are those whom i never thought of getting together with.

we went to this lake near our office in cyberjaya. with the most breath-taking view i've ever seen (lin & sya, tempat kita menggedik kat cyberjaya tu dah jadi super duper chantek okay!!). subhanallah. it was so beautiful, with cool breeze and the sun was about to set. very the kodak moment.

today has been a great day. everybody was so energetic that you can feel the positive aura out of them. including me. although last night was so disappointing.

we had this on going argument that never seems to end. i have become bolder and bolder, i talk back, and i guess it's just a matter of time before either of us erupts.

the best solution that i can think of is to get away from here as far as i could.
any opening job outside asean region?

to be honest, i am disappointed with a lot of people. you guys hurt me like i am some kind of a punching bag or something. is it because i care too much or because i am a punching bag and it just won't change?

or is it because you know how fragile i can be and you decided to test my sanity by coming in and out from my life?

why? why me in the first place?

this, would be the deepest, hurt-est scar, ever.