awal muharram. hehe.

a quick update, eisya & amyz dah selamat menjadi bini orang. hehehe congrats ye korang ;)

lin is to be next, insya-Allah *suka-suka hati aku je kan. mau kena hempuk dengan lin nih!*. eh, rudy kurekure pun dah selamat jadi suami orang last week. tahniah. jalankan kewajipan anda sebaik mungkin okeh.

another year is about to leave us all. kejap je.

moga 2009 lebih happening. hehehe. as in, better prospect for everybody lah. aku pun doa-doa ni. biar bertemu jodoh tahun depan. eh tak. bertunang tahun 2009, kahwin 2010. macam yang dah dirancang secara poyo tu la kan.. wahahahahaha :p

"bila kau kembali.. bila kau kembali nanti.."

lamanya gua tak menaip kat sini. bukan tak cuba, dah banyak kali, pastu aku cam lost of words just like that *start dah manglish aku*.

masih awal la kot untuk aku recap 2008. banyak yang dah berlaku kan. awal tahun yang palat, tengah tahun yang gampang, akhir tahun yang sedikit membahagiakan *smile winn smile*. i thought 2008 would bring me nothing but luck. and i was wrong.

untuk kali yang ke-sejuta, terima kasih. to have a little bit of me in all of your hearts *you know who you are kan kan ;)*. to catch me when i pushed myself into the deepest hole (ferrr!! takuttt!!). because regardless all that shits, i've learned. and i lived.

to amyz and sya, you guys are soooooooo out of our single-and-loving-it league. hahaha. buat baby cepat-cepat. bukan susah pun kan.. hehehe.

to lin and *ehem* aie, kau orang pun dah kira boleh resign from the club. although it's unofficial. i can run the club on my own, you know. cewah.

to myself, hmm, it's okay to be different. it's okay to be cruel once in a while. it's okay to have a relationship that no one would understand. it's okay to fall and get crushed. it's okay to dream big when you know you ain't go/getting nowhere. it's okay to show what you're made of once in a while. it's okay to let go. it's okay to be introvert when needed. it's okay to be ugly and stupid. it's okay when no one remembers you.

all in all, everything will be okay. think for 10 seconds before you say anything. think 30 seconds before you decide to buy anything (hahaha!).

and i think it's okay to miss a not-so-stranger who is currently on his way back to penang for aidiladha. which i unconsciously dialled his number this morning, talked to him in the most *ehem* sexy voice ever, and all that i could remember is saying, "awak dah sampai karang sms kita ek. take care". the rest of the conversation, aku rasa cam aku tak ingat apa aku cakap. mati la. selalu macam ni tau.

ok lah. selamat hari raya aidiladha to all. hari-hari kita kena berkorban; hati, jiwa dan akal.


*cewaahhh! :p*

We Knows

Bila kita tahu, dalam hati kita ini. Very deep inside our heart. We knows. Dialah orangnya. She or he is the one. Soul mate. Belahan jiwa.

Jadi mengapa kita harus tunggu lama untuk menjadikan dia kepunyaan kita selamanya?

And then, sangat keji ok, membiarkan seseorang menanti kepastian kita untuk menunaikan janji hidup bersama.


Kan?


I had enough of waiting. Sangat penat. Sangat letih. Dan sangat mengecewakan~ :-(



So, I couldn't wait more longer to make you're mine. Cause, when I fall in love with you, I don't want to let you go, and I couldn't wait anymore..

Bijak Pandai?

Kehadapan Cik Puan Penolong Pengarah yang dikasihi,

Maklumat yang saya minta tempoh hari adalah berkaitan dengan sejarah, objektif dan perlaksanaan program yang puan laksanakan untuk di masukkan ke dalam pamphlet bahagian puan untuk tujuan promosi.

Bukannya GARIS PANDUAN PERLAKSANAAN PROGRAM seperti yang puan serahkan kepada saya.

Jika mengikut logik puan, sepanjang hidup puan, pernahkah puan melihat pamphlet bahagian/jabatan/kementerian/bank yang mengandungi GARIS PANDUAN PERLAKSANAAN PROGRAM?

Sekian, terima kasih.

--------------------

Aku: Saya nak buat pamphlet ni.
Pegawai x: Pamphlet tu apa?

(Aku buat muka blurr. Pamphlet tu apa ek? Gula-gula kot)


Arghhh! Tekanan perasaan!

Aku tak tahu diorang ni hidup zaman apa. Mungkinkah zaman dinosour yang memungkinkan mereka tidak memahami bahasa mudah yang aku gunakan. Rasanya umur mereka dengan umur aku, tidak banyak bezanya. Ah, kalau setakat 4-7 tahun... jauh sangat ke beza umur tu?

tick ing out

There are a lot inside which i don't know how to split it out.
Like previously, like before.
happy and sad all together in every step.
I get some i lost some.
just wonder when can completely get all of it.

Mencari Bahagia

Kalaulah 'bahagia' itu seperti barang yang boleh dilihat dan dipegang, apakah jaminannya bahawa ia tidak akan hilang?

dolu-dolu

tiba-tiba teringat zaman Geng Kelawo dulu. eh aku still CEO ke ek?
hehehehe :p




ok takde idea dah.

Kisah Bakal Pengantin: Pakej Perkahwinan

Memula tu aku tengok pakej dia, RM1288. Ada 2 pasang baju untuk lelaki-perempuan, 2 kali make-up (nikah dan sanding), pelamin. Oklah kot. So, dengan confident dan berwajah manis, aku pergilah tanya pakej tersebut.

HAH, ambil kau!! Rupanya pakej tu tak termasuk:
+ RM300 Transportation lori untuk hantar dan ambil set pelamin yang ala-ala
+ RM200 Transportation make-up artist untuk pergi-balik, sehari (kalau nikah dan sanding hari lain-lain, kali 2 dan seterusnya)
+ RM500 Hiasan bilik (cadar sendiri, cadar dia punya RM780)

Adehhh, sengal! Terbeliak sat biji mata aku. Gilalah diorang ni. Kereta dia pakai minyak apa? Minyak jet ke? Harga minyak petrol kereta dah turunlah kak oi!

Hiasan bilik tu, bukannya pakai bunga fresh. Bunga plastik je. Boleh sampai RM500. Memang cari duit betul lah diorang ni.

Dan, aku bukannya sewa baju dgn dia, just make-up dan pinjam beberapa aksesori aje. Dari sewa baju RM400 sepasang lelaki-perempuan, baik buat baju sendiri. Boleh pakai sampai bila-bila atau kalau rasa nak kahwin lagi. Pelamin yang dia tunjuk pun, ala-ala tak meriah je. Too simple, kosong sangat.

Aku ingatkan kalau ambil pakej kat One Stop Center ni lebih murah berbanding perseorangan, rupanya lebih cekik darah! Itulah kau, orang nak kahwin, kau pun nak kahwin. Tapi bajet ciput. Rasakan!

Eh, tak ada ke rancangan tv, Perkahwinan Bajet? Melancong pun ada rancangan tv, Destinasi Bajet (8TV). Dah, dah... melalut pula. Hmm, kesimpulannya, carilah orang lain.

So, kawan-kawan... pencarian juru make-up, penghias pelamin dan bilik tidur bakal bermula.

Hiiieee

Lama tak update kat sini. Hiks. :-)

Tak ada benda sangat. Cuma sangat pening dan sibuk dengan persiapan. Persiapan nak exam k~~ :-p

Persiapan lain akan di-busy-kan selepas tamat exam nanti.

Hooyeh!!

awwwww :)

alaaa suwitnya layout baru ni. i like sesangat. baru nampak yang kita ni wanita. cewah!

by the way, just dropping by to say that i think i miss talking to all of you. at the same time. hehehehe. sekian :p

Ada program di Pahang yang perlu aku hadiri. Tapi, seriously... aku sibuk sangat sekarang ni. Banyak perkara kena handle. Rumah baru tu nyata beri rezeki melimpah ruah, Alhamdulillah. Orang datang berkunjung tak sudah. Tak kan nak tinggal ibu aku sendirian masak dan membasuh pinggan sendirian?

Heheheh.. ok! Aku ada idea.

Idea untuk lari. Hahahah... *tanduk setan dah muncul ni*

Senyum palsu

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Maaf Zahir dan Batin. 

Maaflah, aku dah jarang-jarang masuk blog ni untuk menulis. Banyak membaca dan memerhati. Kalau ada entry baru dari 3 divas lain, aku baca. Kalau tak, aku jadi pemerhati yang menantikan bilalah entry lama tu nak turun-turun dan ganti dengan entry baru.

A lot of thing happens. Aku tahu. Aku sedar. Cuma, entah bilalah aku boleh duduk dan dengar cerita korang ni dari hati ke hati macam dulu-dulu. Banyak betul yang aku kena catch-up. Kita pun dah tak selalu habiskan masa bersama-sama macam dulu-dulu lagi. 

I'm sorry. Aku banyak excuse dari join korang lately. Betul, aku busy. Kerja-kerja-kerja. Macam aku kata, aku bukan gila kerja, tapi kerja tu gila kat aku *chill!* Kat opis tu, aku bos kecil (bos betul tak ada ganti lagi), aku kuli. Kalau aku tak buat, tak de siapa nak buat. 

Bukan tak ada orang lain, tapi it seems, orang lain tak pedulikan kerja-kerja yang bertimbun kerana bagi diorang, ada tak ada kerja, sampai masa gaji tetap masuk. Aku boleh buat sama macam diorang, malah lebih teruk pun boleh. Tapi kalau aku buat perkara yang sama, apa bezanya aku dengan diorang tu? 

Makan gaji haram tiap-tiap bulan, jadi darah daging sampai kiamat. 

Ada sorang tu, boleh tak ambil cuti, tapi blah balik kampung macam tu je. Dah sampai setengah jalan baru mesej untuk inform. Tinggal aku terkontang-kanting cover 3 event besar dalam sehari. Aku bukan nak berkira, tapi kalau orang tu ada perikemanusiaan, tentu dia boleh fikir dengan waras. Aku rasa dia BINATANG yang tak ada perasaan sebab tu dia boleh blah macam tu je. 

Oh, alamak! Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Maaf Zahir Batin. Maaf kalau ada terkasar bahasa, termaki, terhamun, jangan simpan dalam hati. Hari baik, bulan Syawal ni, kenalah saling maaf-memaafi *smile*

Arghh, bila nak duduk piknik atas rumput hijau di hadapan PoJ tu lagi? Kawan-kawan, jomlah bawa ketupat, rendang, lemang dan kuih raya berkelah atas rumput tu...

I know, I understand and I accept.

I wont be happy at all.
For yesterday.
For today.
Forever.
Not this time.
Not next time.
Not every time.

walau..

sekali dua dalam hidup, aku rasa sempurna.






tapi kesempurnaan itu suatu yang tidak mungkin akan berlaku..

Happy Birthday Awin

Happy Birthday Dearest. May you have a great year ahead. And I wish you all the best in life.

Kadang Allah selalunya tak beri apa yang kita mahu. Tapi Dia akan berikan sesuatu yang lebih baik dari itu. :-)

And I always love you. Mwahs!!

i'm sorry - blackstreet [KTHO, UTM Skudai, 1999]

rahsia.

aku ada banyak rahsia. tentang perasaan aku yang sentiasa berubah. yang aku rasa macam nak jerit kat telinga orang-orang itu dan bagitau mereka apa yang aku rasa.

ok aku admit. aku cepat bosan dengan orang. aku cepat suka dengan orang. tapi semuanya perasaan yang tak akan bertahan waima sehari.

rahsia nombor satu. kalau lah tadi, masa dia berhenti kat meja aku, perasaan meronta-ronta nak bagitau dia. betapa aku kecik hati sangat bila dapat tau dia dah bertunang. walaupun sebenarnya hidup aku langsung tak ada kena-mengena dengan dia. ini adalah perasaan yang pelik dan tamak lah kot.

rahsia nombor dua. aku cakap aku tak kisah bila dia tinggalkan aku. tak pedulikan aku langsung. sebenarnya hari-hari aku teringat. apa yang kami buat tempoh hari. aku tengok telefon hampir setiap setengah jam. gila.

rahsia nombor tiga. aku memang tamak.

rahsia nombor empat. orang yang paling aku benci pada saat ini sebenarnya adalah orang yang paling aku cuba untuk maafkan semua kesalahan dia kat aku.

rahsia nombor lima. aku sakit hati. tapi aku tak nak mengaku.

rahsia nombor enam. aku rasa nak nangis beriya. harap-harap ada sedikit magik la minggu depan. 26 tahun tanpa apa-apa yang magik memang agak tragis la kan..

tengok sekejap jer

Tengok sekejap ek
Menu beralih tangan.
Boleh que tak?
Tak, nak tengok sekejap jer!
Dia tengah tengok, boleh kasi balik?
Just nak pinajm tengok sekejap jer. Eh tengah tengok ke tadi?
Tak le I pegang jer!!!


Kalau lelaki tengok insiden tue, for sure she win and I'm lose!
Gone be by gone without apologize.
Muke putih, licin.
Mata cantik.
Tapi manners out!

Bencinya

Nak emosi sikitlah kat sini. Kat blog sendiri macam malas nak emosi-emosi sgt. Nasib baik ada tempat lain nak tulis-tulis.

Akak bukan apa. Akak tak suka langsung dengan orang yang annoying. Macam akak update status dekat facebook, how I bored with stupid and annoying people.

Bukan apa. Akak tak sukalah orang tanya-tanya hal peribadi akak sedangkan dia bukan kenal akak sangat. Bukan rapat dengan akak sangat. Tetiba nak tanya, eh, bila kau nak kawen. Sampai hati tak bagi tau aku. Kendian, ada lagi sorang umat ni, tanya-tanya banyak sangat tentang akak dengan si SuperHero. IIeee.. Bencinya. Apekejadahnya? Diorang tu ala-ala best friend ke nak diberitahu semua tentang akak kat dia? Puhlis lah!

I'm always like that. I kinda person yang tell anything about me to someone that closed to me. Not to some other stranger kan? Gile ke suka-suka hati bgtau hal personal kat orang lain?

Since akak tak suka beritahu hal personal kat orang. Jadi orang yang tanya too much details about myself, akak akan rasa annoyed tak ingat dunia punya annoyed. Tak suka oke! Hii.. Emosi mak tau! Rasa macam kena harass je. Tak selesa bila ditanya bertubi-tubi macam tu, hal peribadi/peribodi pulak tu.

I dont mind to tell other about myself. But, if you ask in the right way, I'll tell you the truth, honestly. But if you like semberono je tanya-tanya ape semua. Hell no, I wont tell anything at all.

Kat sini bukan Awin, Lyn & Sya je baca. Ada orang lain juga baca kan? So, akak tak prefer nak bagitau apa-apa tentang akak kat sini. Takpe. Ada cara lain untuk beritahu kan? ;-)

Itu saja luahan emosi kali ini. Harap next entri tidak emosi seperti ini. :-)

mainan.

aku macam tiada rasa.

bohong. sebenarnya aku rasa yang bermacam-macam. campur-aduk. rasa macam tak percaya, rasa seronok, rasa kasihan.

dia pegang tangan aku. kuat-kuat. aku macam tak tahu apa nak buat. dan dia cakap dia tak akan lepaskan aku lagi. macam dulu.

kepala aku pusing-pusing. tapi hati aku tetap tak ada rasa. saja aku matikan segala rasa yang ada. aku tau dia pun sama pusing. jasad saja yang ada. fikirannya tentu saja kembali pada yang menelefon sebanyak 13 kali.

aku diam.

betapa istimewanya aku. sampai sanggup dibohong pada mereka, sampai langsung tidak peduli pada yang asyik mencari dia. semata-mata kerana aku?

biar betik mamat ni.




cuma, aku tak tahu kenapa aku hilang rasa percaya pada lelaki lagi..

I'm an eagle.
But i'm become a duck coz I'm in the wrong place.

yang paling aku nak ingat sampai bila-bila

sekadar renungan.

sambil-sambil tonyoh maskara dan eye-liner pakai toner, aku ngomel tak sudah-sudah. tapi bukan marah ye.

percubaan pertama gagal. tapi sumpah aku tak marah. percubaan kedua tinggal beberapa jam dari sekarang. jantung aku, perut aku, semua bunyi pelik-pelik.

dulu, disebabkan dia lah aku pernah kena marah dengan bapak aku. tapi bukan salah dia pun, bapak aku je yang tak paham.

kalau aku ni suatu bentuk sejarah, tanpa dia aku ni mungkin jadi pasir saja..

my aftermath.

aku pernah cakap, having the right people with you is enough to make the world goes crazy the way it should. walaupun takde la bersama-sama kat celah ketiak memasing 24 jam je kan.

dah tak ada benda yang perlu aku cakap pun.



p/s: rindu kat sya & amyz. lin tak sangat sebab dah jemu la tengok muka dia :p

It Is Life, Aight?

Kita happy-happy~

Tapi. Bukan semua orang suka kita happy. Kan?

:-)

Biarlah diorang. Ok?

Janji kita happy dengan diri kita. Dengan cinta kita. Dengan famili kita. Dengan kawan-kawan kita. Itu lagi penting.

Elo. Orang yang tak suka tengok kita happy tu. Sila pegi jawoh-jawoh yek! Kita tak perlukan orang macam kamu untuk ganggu-gugat kebahagiaan kita.

Yang penting. Kita happy! No matter what. :-)

Awin, Lin & Sya. Misyu. Mwah!!

kereta binatang atau rumah buah

Kereta binatang atau rumah buah (baca: sebuah)

"Cik tak nak beli kereta baru ke?"

Aku pandang akak tu dengan muka 1001 pertanyaan kembali.

"Yelah, kereta binatang tu tak sesuai dengan Cik lah. Kami yang kerani pun pakai kereta besar."

Dia refer kereta kancil aku sebagai kereta binatang. "Tak pe, masih boleh berjalan lagi kereta tu."

"Dah berapa lama cik pakai kereta tu?"

"Sejak saya ditingkatan 2. Tapi, dulu mak saya lah yang bawa."

Dia diam sambil kepalanya terangguk-angguk. Mungkin mengira usia kereta binatangku itu. Biarlah dia.


Antara kereta baru dengan rumah baru, aku pilih rumah baru sebab kereta yang ada masih boleh bergerak. Minyak pun boleh tahan jimatnya. Servis pun tak berapa mahal berbanding kereta besar yang lain.

Bagi aku, kereta itu liabiliti yang perlu ditanggung kosnya bertahun-tahun. Malah, saban tahun kos membaiki kereta akan naik dan tak pernah turun. Sedangkan rumah pula, sampai satu ketika, ianya merupakan aset yang boleh mendatangkan hasil lumayan.

Lagipun, aku bukannya nak makan, tidur, mandi dan menonton tv dalam kereta tu!

Baju Pengantin: Kisah 1

"Meh sini dik oii, try baju ni..."

Aku buat muka blurr pandang kain yang masih bergulung pada kayu. Kakak tu (aku agak dia kakak pasal muka dia matured, hahahah!) ambil kain lining yang bergulung pada kayu dan ikat pada badan aku. Kemudian dia ambil kain lace dan buat seperti tadi.

Tarraa... dah siap baju pengantin aku (hikss, walaupun prosesnya taklah semudah itu).

"Kau ni, kecik-kecik lagi dah gatal nak kahwin." Dengan muka selamba dia membebel sambil membetulkan kedudukan kain tu pada badan aku.

"Apa pulak..." Dengan muka tak puas hati, sesuka rasa dia kata aku gatal, kang aku tak jadi beli kang. "Ibu, kakak ni kata kakak budak kecik." Kali ni aku ketawa besar.

"Baper umur kau ni, dik?"

"Saya dah 27 lah kak..." Mata dia terbeliak. "27 tahun, kak."

"Kau biar betul! Aku tengok macam 22 tahun je sebab tu aku kata kau gatal nak kahwin."

Tak pasal je.



Moral of the story:
Ketawa banyak-banyak, walaupun pipi kita tembam, tapi kita tetap maintain muda!

Envee

A month. Almost.
Busying juggle with so many things.
Busying to put a priority.
But on top of that envy.
Envy because they get that opportunity in young number.
But seriously some part they don't know how to handle it.
Envy because I should be in that place now.
I be in that place once but its too short time.
And really hope I'll be there again.
So I have the opportunity to avoid or correct their mistake.

hari yang penuh dengan magis.

bila orang yang lebih tua, dalam lingkungan usia 65 - 70 tahun datang lalu menegur kami dengan penuh sopan, dan dengan selambanya dia cakap, "you guys are so ceria. your laughter are so full of happiness and joy". mau kami tak pengsan?

tambahan pula bila dia ada anak lelaki yang kacak. memandu toyota camry dengan penuh macho.


aku?

hampir pengsan dan tercabut nyawa. mata terus jadi kaler pink dan hati berbunga-bunga. hahahaha.



*kah kah kah :p*

selamat hari isnin!

1. gigi aku sakit balik. ok, sure korang suruh aku pi jumpa dentist kan tapi sory laa.. aku memang tak suka jumpa doktor ni. well, err.. unless dia hensem, tinggi, putih, chinese-look, single, bukan duda, tak kurus sangat, pendiam, gila, dengar cakap, suka kaler biru, ...

2. is it ok kalau aku bohong about something, and want it to be that way, untuk kesejahteraan semua pihak? sebab aku rasa ni je jalan penyelesaian yang logik.

3. lately, aku rasa tak sedap hati. something fishy is going on. aku tak tau la apa strategi 'orang tu' tapi aku dapat rasa la macam dia tengah plan something. so, aku rasa aku nak pergi menyiasat. jangan gelak. aku serius ni okeh!

4. seminggu je tinggal untuk dapat apa yang dihajati. hi hi hi. aku sanggup tak beli kasut semata-mata nak simpan duit! huh! dah laa memang kena revamp wardrobe (ok, the real resason is because budak baru ramai nak masuk. kena la dress-up sikit kan).

5. apa je point entry ni? none. aku try to distract myself from the pain. in which, macam tak berkesan pun? baik tido jek!

hello people!

thanks sya.

what goes around comes around?
yeah.



oh. saya ada satu confession.


minggu ini, bunyi ombak adalah bunyi yang paling seksi.
hahahahaha don't ask!


p/s: feels good to be back here :)

Pernah dengar?

What goes around, comes around.

But...

What goes square, I'll make sure it'll be fair!

Forgive and forget...

Forgive and forget. That's what they say. It's good advice, but it's not very practical.

True enough. How can you forget about things that hurt you the most? Apatah lagi apabila ianya melibatkan maruah kita. My dignity, my pride. Selama ini kita ingat dia baik dengan kita tanpa sebarang niat lain. Tapi rupanya, sekadar untuk melancarkan kerjanya. Dan apabila tiba masanya, kita tak mahu lagi menurut arahannya (she's not my boss... the he*ll with her order!), dia memburukkan kita. Adilkah begitu?

Adil itu tidak murah. Tidak pernah percuma. There is a price you have to pay! In my case, maruah aku di injak-injak sesuka hati. Aku dipersalahkan kerana menjalankan tugas dengan baik (terlebih baik mungkin sehingga orang memuji aku dan bukan kamu!).

When someone hurts us...we want to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, we want to be right.

Again, it is absolutely true. I'm not deaf (oh, maybe a tone deaf. coz', I can't do a karaoke :p), I'm not blind, I'm not even a puppet. Sooner or later, if not me, someone else will hurt you more than what you did to me! Ingatlah, Allah itu Maha Esa. Dia masih dan akan terus berkuasa ke atas umatNya.

What you did, yes, it's hurt and I want to hurt you back even more. But, there's no rushing to it. I still got plenty of time. Well, wise man says, "Don't get mad, get sweet revenge!" I'll wait for the right moment to the taste the sweetnest of revenge on you ;)

Without forgiveness, old scores are never settled...old wounds never heal.

How I could forgive you when you never say sorry and explain to me things that you have told others about me? Mengata orang tu memang seronok, kan? Tetapi memohon kemaafan itu tidak pernah mudah...

And the most we can hope for is that one day we'll be lucky enough to forget.

I hope so. But, sorry... I can't. That's how I learn. I don't want the same people bringing the same problem to me twice.

Hey, thanks for the opportunity you gave me. To get to know you, to learn working with someone like you. I'll work even better than you did. I'll treat others who works with me with respect. Insya-Allah!


Credit: Quotation taken from Grey's Anatomy, Season 4, Episode 4.

And I Cry...

I hope life treats you kind
And I hope you have all you've dreamed of.
And I wish to you, joy and happiness..

No, I won't wish for your love anymore.

Cause I already have the man I've been dreaming of right now. But I'm not a heartless person. I pray for you happiness and wish the best of your life.

Please. Take care. :-)

So, goodbye. Please, don't cry.
We both know I'm not what you, you need..

Cinta Tak Datang Hanya Sekali...

Bisikku pada bulan

Kembalikan temanku
Kekasihku, syurgaku

Tanpa dia malam menemaniku
Sepi memelukku

Bulan jangan biar siang biar malam ini kelam
Biar ia sepi sepertiku

>000<--->000<--->000<

Orang yang duduk di kerusi bahagian atas saya beberapa kali menendang-nendang kerusi saya ketika menonton SEPI. nak je saya sound,

'Abang, kalo nak ngorat pun tunggulah pas abes tgk sepi ni! Saya tak ke mana pun selagi citer ni tak abes...'

eeee, geram betul!

Bawang...

Hidup ini umpama mengupas bawang yang setiap helaiannya berbeza antara satu sama lain. Walaupun sudah acapkali mengupasnya tetapi adakalanya ia tetap boleh membuat kita menangis!

heartbreaker - will.i.am

Where It's At
I Know Karmas Comin To Pay Me Back
I Hurt The Sweetest Thang That's On The Map
I Broke Her Heart In 30 Seconds Flat
In 30 Seconds Flat <- oh yes. 30 second-flat. sakit hati aku.

Now How Did I
Just How Did I Become That Kind Of Guy
To Look At Girl And Lie Right In The Eye
My Momma Told Me Willy That Ain't Right
Boy Now That Ain't Right

I'm S S S Sorry
I'm S S S Sorry
I Didn't Mean To Break Your Heart [x2]
I'm S S S Sorry
I'm S S S Sorry
I Didn't Mean To Break Ya
B B B B Break It Baby
Look Baby
I'm A Heartbreaker [x6]
I'm A Heart
A H H H H I'm A Heart
A H H H I'm A

Where She Go
I Got Some Things I Gotta Let Her Know
To Fix The Love Now It's Impossible
But Baby Baby If We Take It Slow
If We Take It Slow
We Can Make It Work
We Just Can't Throw The Love Down In The Dirt
You Probly Thinkin I'm A Fuckin Jerk
Cause The Way I Let You Down It Made You Hurt
I Didn't Mean To Make You Hurt

I'm S S S Sorry
I'm S S S Sorry
I Didn't Mean To Break Your Heart [x2]
I'm S S S Sorry
I'm S S S Sorry
I Didn't Mean To Break Ya
B B B B Break It Baby
Look Baby
I'm A Heartbreaker [x6]
I'm A Heart
A H H H H I'm A Heart
A H H H I'm a

Break It Down
Let's Break It Down [roughly x15]

So So So Sorry
So So So Sorry
A La La La
La La La La
La La La La

I'm S S S Sorry
I'm S S S Sorry
I Didn't Mean To Break Your Heart [x2]
I'm S S S Sorry
I'm S S S Sorry
I Didn't Mean To Break Ya
B B B B Break It Baby
Look Baby
I'm A Heartbreaker [x6]
I'm A Heart
A H H H H I'm A Heart
A H H H I'm a..


the best song to play on loop in my head for tomorrow's futsol game. lawan dengan AJV okay. hahahaha. wish me luck ek. walaupun tugas aku cuma sebagai 'pencuri ayam'.

buat hati kering. muka kena ganas. esok aku sepak je team AJV tu. huhuhu.

Ada aku kesah?

Ada aku kesah?

Pedulik ape aku?

Kata aku pada diri

Pedulik ape aku?

Ada aku kesah?

walapun aku sendiri tahu, aku cuma dustbin

Aku kesah dan aku pedulik untuk tak jadi macam itu lagi

bodoh dan bangang dan bahlul.

macam biasa.

ada seribu satu perkara yang aku nak luahkan.
tapi semua mati di saat aku cuba melontar kata.

wanna know something?

kawan kamu yang seorang ini sebenarnya ada kerja yang perlu disiapkan. ada bahan untuk di-present di meja segi empat pejabat esok. tapi boleh tak dia masih berkira-kira untuk tidur, dan persetankan saja kerja itu?

dia mahu bohong pada kamu-kamu. yang dia boleh berpijak kukuh di dunia realiti tanpa perlu tangannya dipaut kuat pada kamu-kamu. dia sendiri sedang berbohong pada dirinya. dengan harapan semuanya akan pulih seperti biasa.

kadang, dia sandarkan pada kemarahan yang ada untuk terus melalui 24 jam yang bersilih ganti. dan dia cuba alihkan fokus pemikiran kepada sesuatu yang lebih produktif.

dan kamu tau sajalah apa yang berlaku selepas itu..

Hug. Hug. Hug.

Dear my sistah.

Hugs. Hugs. Hugs.

:-)

Love u all. ;-)

Bobo a.k.a Chuwawa kirim salam. Tengok.. comel tak dia? Hikhik.

Hitam Putih Kehidupan

Lihatlah sekitar alam
Dunia luas terbentang
Langit tinggi kebiruan
Pohon-pohon kehijauan
Hembusan bayu yang menyegarkan

Dengarkan di sana-sini
Beburung riang menyanyi
Berbunga aneka warna
Sumber kedamaian jiwa
Mensyukuri nikmat Maha Esa

Begitu berharga kehidupan ini
Bagi mereka yang tahu menghargai
Mengapa terdorong oleh perasaan
Kalau turutkan hati diri menjadi korban

Tiada yang dapat lari dari masalah diri
Hadapilah dengan tenang
Tiap cabaran yang datang
Atasinya dengan keimanan

Sekadar buat renungan
Untuk mu teman tersayang
Hitam putih masa depan
Sendirian menentukan
Hidup ini usah persiakan

for god sakes, woman!

yeah. itulah ungkapan favourite untuk hari ini.

hari-hari yang dilalui, walaupun bergelak ketawa menghilai macam pontianak, tuan badan saja yang tau rasa di hati. panas. menggelegak. kecewa. mati.

tak apa lah. aku dah buat apa yang perlu, yang lain kuserahkan saja pada Allah Ta'ala. dan dendam-dendam yang ada pasti menjadi lebih parah. itulah aku. biarkan api membakar diri.

dan seperti yang aku bilang pada cik amyz, aku dah tak kuasa nak fikir. tapi aku tak boleh buat apa-apa kerana hari-hari yang aku lalui adalah penuh dengan kemarahan dan kebencian. dan bila kita marah, apa saja yang kita buat, pastinya tanpa rasa bersalah walau sedikit pun.

i deserve an explanation. that is all i ask. noktah.

Gaji 2 kali sebulan...

Yes, akhirnya! Cakap-cakap itu dapat dibuktikan.

Ingat kawan-kawan!

Kalau 40 orang doakan kau bodoh, memang korang akan jadi bodoh. Apatah lagi kalau 4 juta orang doakan kau bodoh. Bukan setakat kau bodoh, tapi bangang+bahalol!

Tension!

For God sake! Please do listen to us this one time!!! Twice a month doesn't lessen our burden. Your decision make us suffer more.

Once!

How often you meet the right person?

10% daripada RM18k & RM15k aje?

Aku rasalah, ini apa yang aku rasa.

Mungkin dah lebih daripada 4 juta orang Malaysia yang cakap dia bodoh sebab itulah dia betul-betul bodoh. Kan?

Iyalah, ustazah aku masa sekolah dulu cakap... kalau 40 kali orang cakap kita jahat, nanti betul-betul kita jadi jahat. Walaupun kejahatan kita tu taklah sehebat orang lain. Setakat bunuh makhluk Allah S.W.T je, nyamuk atau semut, contohnya. Jahat jugalah kan, sebab kita membunuh.

Ibu aku pula selalu pesan, jangan lepas laku nanti orang benci, jangan lepas kata sebab kata-kata tu satu doa. Dan, ustazah aku (yang sama) juga cakap... doa-doa dari orang teraniaya ni cepat sampai dan dimakbulkan Allah S.W.T.

Amin!

Is hard

specially on broken hearted.

tata tudeluuuu

kemaafan itu kan dendam yang terindah.. (ok. gila poyo)

***

ermm, sebelum saya berlepas ke utara, di sini saya ingin mengambil kesempatan untuk mengucapkan SELAMAT HARI JADI YANG KE *TUT* kepada boyfren kawan saya, iaitu encik ayie-banyak-songeh. hahahaha! moga anda tetap menten kecik *ahaks!*.

(i am too fucking cool to be mad and angry and pissing off like nobody's business. but that doesn't mean i forget what you have done..)

alhamdulillah..

dah selamat semua :)





terima kasih untuk doa-doa anda.

Oh ya! Menteri-menteri dan pegawai kerajaan Kelas A, tidak perlu bimbang dengan kenaikan harga barang *tersebut*. Apa sebab ye? Segalanya kerajaan tanggung. BULLSHIT! Duit gaji tak terusik langsung. Orang gaji pergi pasar pun kerajaan yang bayar harga barang *tersebut*. BULLSHIT! Sewa rumah, bil elektrik, bil air, bil telefon... semuanya ditanggung oleh kerajaan. BULLSHIT!

Eh, eh... bukan kerajaan bayarlah. Tapi pembayar cukai yang bayar. Duit kita-kita, duit golongan pertengahan...

Oh, oh, oh... teruskanlah memberi subsidi kepada syarikat menantu tersayang menyokong konsert amal MAKSIAT! yang sering dianjurkan. Duit hasil tiket dikutip, tapi masih memohon peruntukan kerajaan untuk menganjurkannya dengan alasan KONSERT AMAL. BULLSHIT!

BULLSHIT! BULLSHIT! BULLSHIT!

Ooppsss...

Setahun!

Hari ini. 4 Jun 2008. Genap setahun.

Setahun yang lalu, kalau aku tidak rebut peluang yang datang dihadapan mata, aku masih bergelar pelajar yang setia mengusung buku dan menggalas beg, turun naik tangga, keluar masuk dewan kuliah, bersengkang mata menyiapkan tugasan dan memerah otak menjawab soalan periksa.

Juga, tentu sahaja rumah baru itu, tidak mampu dimiliki sehingga kini.

Kerjaya ini membawa aku mengelilingi segenap pelosok bumi bertuah ini. Sehinggakan nama tempat yang sebelumnya agak janggal kedengaran juga telah kujelajahi. Seronok? Ah, tentu sahaja! Siapa yang tidak seronok kalau dapat berjalan-jalan yang tiket penerbangan dan penginapannya ditanggung, ada pemandu yang datang menjemput dan dihantar pulang? Cuma sediakan sajalah duit untuk ber'shopping'...

Setahun sahaja. Setahun yang penuh bermakna. Setahun yang menukar status diri. Dari seorang pelajar kepada pencari rezeki. Juga dari status 'it's complicated' kepada tunangan orang (hahaha...). Hikss, tak sangkakan? Setahun, 365 hari, 52 minggu... sekejap je masa berlalu.

hari saya mengedet encek wewuf.

akhirnya..

the quest on finding THE date to accompany me in order to watch indiana jones has ended (he he he!).

as a summary, (he he he!):

• i'm lost of words (tipuk!) on how to describe what i feel right now.
• indiana jones has lost his touch. too much effects and punchlines kinda killed it in a way.
• alien?????? in indiana jones???? what the fark???!!!
• HAPPY. HAPPY. HAPPY. HAPPY. HAPPY. LIKE OUT-OF-THIS-WORLD HAPPY!

thank you. i. l. u. s. d. m. t. i. t. i. d. i. i. h. t. l. w. y. :)

p/s: crack the code if you're damn genius!

45 Things A Girl Would Die For

1. touch their waist
2. talk to them
3. share secrets
4. give her your jacket
5. kiss them slowly

are you remembering this ?

6. hug her
7. hold her
8. laugh with her
9. invite her somewhere
10. let her be with you when you're with your friends

keep reading ..

11. smile with her
12. take pics with her
13. pull her onto your lap
14. when she says she loves you more, deny it . fight back
15. when her friends say i love her more than you, deny it . fight back and hug her tight so she cant get to her friends ; it makes her feel loved

are you thinking about someone ?

16. always hug her and say 'i love you' when you see her
17. kiss her unexpectedly
18. HUG HER FROM BEHIND AROUND THE WAIST
19. tell her shes beautiful not sexy !
20. tell her the way you feel about her !

you need to show her you mean it too

21. kiss her on the lips
22. DONT ask her to buy you stuff . you buy HER stuff
23. TELL HER WHAT FEELS GOOD
24. make her feel loved
25. buy her stuff . small things can still help

..we might deny it but we accutally like and kinda want you to get us things

26. don't lie to her
27. dont cheat on her
28. take her anywhere she wants
29. txt messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school/work..whatever, and how much you miss her
30. be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can always count on you

are you still reading this ? u better be.. its important

31. Hold her close when she's cold and she can hold you too .
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her .
33. Kiss her on the cheek ; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss them) .
34. While in the movie, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly .
35. Dont ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad . If shes upset, comfort her

remember this next time you are with her

36. When people diss her, stand up for her .
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her .
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart . Link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you .
39. When walking next to each other, grab her hand .
40. When you hug her hold her in your arms as long as possible

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED

41. Call her at night to wish her sweet dreams .
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears .
43. Take her for long walks at night .
44. Always Remind her how much you love her .

You'll never know when she needs just a lil more love ..

repost this in 20 seconds or you will lose the one you care about the most ! <3

Guys Repost: "i would do this for her"
Girls Repost: 45 Things A Girl Would Die For

45. NEVER tell her you love her, unless u TRULY mean it with all of ur heart.

Jadi Bukit!

Bosan.
Kerja banyak.
Memang berlambak.

Orang dulu-dulu kata,
Buat sikit-sikit,
Lama-lama jadi bukit.

Memang betul pun.
Bukan yang habis tu makin membukit.
Tapi yang datang tu jadi bukit.

Moralnya.
Kalau banyak kerja,
Buat cepat-cepat.
Supaya tak jadi gunung pula!

Sing My Heart Out

Nak karoke. Huk huk huk..
Me knows my voice tak berapa sedap macam buluh perindu sangat-sangat.. Tapi.. I always love singing even tho Awin kat sebelah gelak terkekeh-kekeh kerana akak suka sangat nyanyi dengan mengajuk suara penyanyi~ Haha. :-p

Nak karoke..

So I can sing my heart out. So I can dedicate song to him. So I can tell him, how much he means to me.

Because sometime words just ain't enough~

Love you! Mwahs!!

kawan-kawan

two major events happened in this month.

1) eisya's engagement.

CONGRATULATIONS MAKCIKKKK! (siapa dah bertunang adalah eligible untuk digelar makcik :p). yeah, from what i heard she has gone through quite a storm just to get where she is right now. and then, the worst scenario happened, this time i was there to actually saw it happened. she cried in front of me for the the first time since we knew each other.

but she's one strong woman, i tell you. dan sekarang, walaaaaahhhh! sudah bertunang. dan akan mengakhiri zaman daranya tidak berapa lama lagi (insya-allah). wehuuuu!

lin & i almost couldn't make it to her engagement party. me with WCIT, lin got stuck in bukit beruntung. hahahaha mesti sya dah bengang gila! but, atas nama persahabatan, cewah, aku yang dah separa zombi ni gagahkan jugak la pergi tengok dia. it was around 9 pm masa tu. lin pun gagah jugak balik kl.

sampai kat rumah dia, eh eh boleh tak minah ni tak mandi lagi? still in her sweet, white kurung. bagi kitorang makan sedap. peh. tour her new house.

then there was this young boy named kimi ke ek, aku hilang ingatan dah. he was so cute. tapi sombong. eleh memula je. aku dengan lin tekel punya tekel punya tekel, yes! dapat jugak kat aku! muahahahahahahaha! lasak dia ya rabbi. just ask lin and sya. lucky i am made out of steel (???). and like other boys yang ada dalam dunia ni, sedikit gatal la jugak. he was like suka duduk ngesot kat celah-celah aku, and there was one time he actually rested his head on you-know-where (aku pun tak sedar lah. ahahaha). oh honey, i can't feed u that :p

which bring us to that unforgettable event, kereta rosak di tengah LDP. the end.


2) lin's birthday

i have always known on what she wants on her birthday. materialistically, after the so-called incident, i couldn't afford to buy her something. but i still want to spend la on her. cuma tak tau macam mana. so, hehehe, can i wrap ayie instead as a gift? wakakakakakakaka!

my problem was how to get hold of ayie. dulu ada la simpan no telefon dia pastu aku buang. ym id pun tak tau. jadi dengan tak malunya aku mintak la kat lin. konon nak tanya pasal petronas. hahaha. but i know lin is smarter than that :p

mind you, i have never spoke to ayie ok. tapi sebab kawan punya pasal, ehem, terpaksa la keluarkan skill mass-comm kan. huhuhuhu.

it took quite a while to convince ayie into joining us. the party, i mean. ala banyak songeh pulak mamat ni (hahaha!). aku tau dia nak ikut tapi dia segan. hello. aku ni lagi penyegan tau tak? ahahahahaha. but, i told him some things, ehem, and finally, yes! berjayaaaa!!!

so, after work i went and picked all of them up, last sekali baru ayie. terkejut beruk minah tu tengok ayie ada! ahahahaha sampai nangis-nangis. tu lah. terer tak terernya aku ni kan. then we went straight to the curve. lapar okay.

sementara tunggu sya, jalan-jalan kejap. and i bought lin the cuppacake chic. GILA SEDAP OK! TAK PERNAH AKU RASA CUPCAKE SESEDAP ITU! pastu makan kat marche. oh the pizza la yang aku target dulu. lantak. perut lapar gila ni.

tiup-tiup lilin, nyanyi sikit, makan-makan, amik gambar. wow. and called the night early sebab aku memang ngantuk tahap gaban.

oklah. sekian report pada bulan ini. bulan depan takde birthday sapa-sapa kan? aahaha ok. cau!

sayang lin

hmmm..

dear lin *smiles*,

happy 27th birthday to you! i honestly hope that you have the best birthday ever (in which i think you did, right? *wink*).

*pandang monitor dah setengah jam tanpa buat apa-apa*

lin, i'm sorry. am not myself today. aku dah mati kata-kata. but please note that i love you so much.

your comot friend,

me ;)

Birthday Girl

The Place


The Princess (yang luvly and sweet)


The Tok Dalang a.k.a Evil Master a.k.a Organizer (yang adorable)


The Peeps (yang chumel)


The Special Guest (yang sporting.. Hehe.)


Hik hik hik... ;-)

Hye, Birthday Girl, may all your wish come true. Me always pray for you (Awin & Sya too.. )

Nasihat dari "Kawan"

Walau seteruk mana pun kawan kamu itu. Kamu tidak perlu cakap pada dia, 'Padan muka' atau 'Itulah kamu tidak dengar kata aku dulu' atau 'Nasib kamulah', pabila dia ada masalah.

Dia kawan. Dia perlukan sokongan kamu walau apa pun situasi yang dia hadapi sekarang. Dia kawan kamu. Dia manusia biasa. Selalunya tersalah buat pilihan. Dia juga ada hati dan perasaan.

Kamu tidak pernah berada di dalam kasut dia. Kamu tidak pernah tahu bagaimana dia berusaha untuk menjadi manusia sempurna. Kamu memang baik, kamu tergolong dalam golongan yang bijak pandai. Kamu sempurna di mata dia. Dan kamu sentiasa anggap diri kamu terbaik dalam dunia.

Tapi dengan kata-kata kamu yang membuat dia down dan depress. Aku rasa kamu bukan kawan yang baik. Aku rasa kamu tidak pernah menganggap dia kawan dalam hidup kamu. Dia hanya melukut di tepi gantang sahaja.

Dia buat salah. Sebab dia manusia yang mahu buat pilihan yang tepat. Untuk membuat pilihan yang tepat, tidak salah dia membuat beberapa kesilapan dalam hidupnya.

Kamu tidak menyokong waktu dia ditimpa masalah, aku rasa kamu bukan kawan yang baik pun.


*akak malas nak tulis entri ni kat blog akak. sebab somehow, entri ini mean to beberapa "kawan" akak. :-) *

Thanks adik-adik yang sudi jadi kawan akak selama ini. :-)

Love Pisang!

1stly. Congrats to one of us for who 1 step closer to another phase of life as women. She sooo sweet on her semi big day (coz big day tu another step la). White kurung with white selendang. She put on some make up okay! Damn I can see her live. But at least ader siaran tertunggak, but she still menten the diva look.

Looking at her I alwaz wonder. How far women can stand for their love. Fight and do anything what it takes in the name of love. I'm truly salute to all this women. I just can wish all good men out there can open their eyes to see the pureness of love rather than their looks. Coz as women sometimes, I also doubt to do what this type of women can do. Hmm maybe my time didn't come yet. Yeah maybe later.

Why I wrote this? Coz right after I saw her, my fren who happly engage to the guy she fight for in the name on love. I face some insiden with miss adorable. I call a fren for some rescue ranger (Yeah u can sing that famous cartoon theme song with his name on it). From him, I just pray for a bit love as fren. But my wish just stay as a wish. I dont want to put him as subject, but pardon me. I guess u can think and finish up my words here. Coz the 2 girls stay there alone at highway almost midnite n pray hard somefren can come to comfort. Made them feel secure at least. Thanks god there is banana to eat and to talk about. Bananas safe them from fear.

Owh, why?? Why?? Tell me why on earth is hard for them to see or do something in the name of love? Lets pray for this kind of women. And men (if there is any). Pray for them that they can get what they fight for and be happy with it. Last not least, pray for others so that the lucky peeps can realize, appriciate and open up slowly for them.

Some old skoll to share n listen!

Dari Sudut Lain

The clock ticking...
Less than 24 hours...
Everything is almost ready...
Pray for me...

Alhamdulillah, doaku bakal dimakbulkan Allah...
Mudah-mudahan semuanya berjalan lancar...


p/s: siapalah punya kerja ni? Salah eja nama guwe! Marah ni...

Si Pembawa Air (klik untuk rujuk entry edisi Sis Amyz), rupanya sukar untuk difahami. Si Pembawa Air yang pemurah tetapi sukar untuk difahami dan terlalu berhati-hati.

Kamu mahu tahu kenapa Si Pembawa Air cuma mampu living on the surface? Simply because, we are actually fragile *smile*. Kuat kami hanya depan kamu. Tabah kami hanya kerana tidak mahu menggusarkan hati kamu. Ya, kamu... kamu yang kami kasihi.

Oh, sis... I've been there & done that too. Ayat ini, "Stop Crying Your Heart Out..." dah lali. Hati berhenti menangis, tapi air mata tumpah tak berhenti! Lagaknya bagai empangan pecah yang sukar untuk dirawat lagi!

You should try this... kata pada diri, Cried Out Loud! Berhenti bila kamu rasa tidak mahu menangis lagi untuk kisah kali ini. In the end, kamu akan ketawakan diri kamu.

"Kehilangan cinta bukan untuk ditangisi berterusan. Sekurang-kurangnya Allah masih beri kita peluang untuk mengenali cintanya yang lain!"
Eisya, thediv4s.blogspot.com

Aweks Key Low

Aku baca AweksKL.
Ikut nombor, Ya aku hampir layak membacanya! berdasar klasifikasi di kulit depan.

Jalan-jalan di Mid Valley.
Dia sua aku sesuatu yang wow, sexy dan marvellous.38.Besar 2 inci dari aku punya.Tapi aku sarung jugak.Aku tengok dia, and I know I just turn him on.
"Kene sangat ngan u pakai ari nie. Cantek! Kan?"
"Boleh buat pegi keje n jalan-jalan" Dia tambah lagi hasutan.

Semua orang(baca:lelaki) mintak aku cerita the 'best' part from that book. Nape kene ada ' '. Whut the flick. Ah please open up ur mind. Untuk minda matang itu bukan dilabel sebagai turn on topics for own pleasure yeah.

Aku cebik tengok dia."Takde bajet la, yes it it superb n sexy. U belanja le for my birthday ble? hehehehehe"

*****

Owh, I just feel so annoy with nowdays news. Somebody or someone become blogger pun nak cerita dalam surat khabar? Buang Ink n duit je. Please dont tell me this is the way for those peeps yang baru nampak button 'Publish Post' tuk xtra glamer. Duh!

Rahsia Alam

Kamu mahu tahu rahsia alam?

Alihkan matamu ke laut, airnya cantik membiru dan penuh ketenangan, tapi hanya Allah sahaja yang tahu rahsia di dalamnya. Begitulah kehidupan manusia, riang-ketawa atau menangis-berduka... hanya Allah yang tahu rahsia kehidupan ini. Andainya kamu kecewa, pandanglah ke sungai, airnya mengalir biar berjuta batu menghalang. Kamu perlu jadi seperti air sungai itu! Hidup perlu diteruskan walau beribu rintangan yang menghalang. Dan sekiranya kamu bersedih, pandanglah ke langit, kamu akan sedar bahawa Dia sentiasa bersamamu!

Ya, kebesaran Allah ada di mana-mana. Bukalah hati dan mata kamu luas-luas.

1 day of love :)

30 days have gone just like a passing breeze. kejap gila eh?

but love doesn't have to stop there, does it?

i still smile seperti orang yang kemerengan whenever some 'images' of some 'things' invaded my head in a sudden. and i tried as hard as i could to laugh discreetly tapi adakah aku berjaya? sudah tentu tidaaaaakkk!!!

for the past 30 days, i have reach a certain level where i went against all the odds and que sera, sera, for whatever will be, will just be.

i'm not really a romantic person. i don't exactly know what to say, what to do, how to impress the person i adore so much and how to show him that he means more than anything else in this entire universe, to me.

but he should know how special he is, even when he's left with one front-teeth (ya rabbi :p). this is how i knew that i love him so damn much, because although he has that scary side of him, i am still able to think of another thousand ways on how to love this man for who he is.

and so my friends, this is the end of my mushiness entry, in this particular blog. but no promises though. he he. i am an expressive human being. this is how i appreciate life and such. people may not see this as i do, but i'm fine with subjectivity.

for love is not for a day. and hello there, i love you. yes i do.

- the end -

2 days of love

the day didn't start off quite well for me. with some complications, i started stressing out dan mula la meluap-luap api nak keluar daripada hidung! and my project's deadline has been cut off and instead of having another 10 days, i'm stuck with 2 farking days! so ok, breathe in, breathe out, mulalah mulut ngap-ngap-ngap cari makanan.

bachelor-number-two was here for a user acceptance test, hehehe, finally, something to look at other than my monitor :p. kidding.

by the end of the day, we had both birthday and farewell party to 2 colleagues of mine. aku kan seksaited bab-bab celebrate birthday orang ni semua. working with programmers are actually challenging since most of the time they don't bother to know what's going on. all i get is a "hmmm", or perhaps a "aaah". ye, dah biasa sangat. sungguh boring kan. nasib aku ada. muahahahahaha!

i was the last person to leave the office so poyo tak? hehe.
i know. huhuhu.

that's all lah. nak tido. kejap lagi nak bangun balik dan sambung my work. inilah namanya hidup seorang perantau..

Happiness On Your Way..

Adik-adik.

Akak happy bila dengar adik-adik happy, seronok dan full in love.

I mean love, not only with a guy. But love in every thing you do, or work or someone. Hihi.

:-)

Sebab akak nak bagitau, akak pun sedang happy sekarang ni. Sangat! :-)

runc

masa, masa dan masa.

suka atau tidak, kita memang berperang dengan masa.
and yet, we ended up being one of the casualties.
pffttt!

nak tau apa rasanya berada di hujung pedang aku?

5 days of love

five more days huh?

what i gain, what i don't gain in the past 25 days is for me to keep. it's not something that anybody can understand, anyway.

but i am happy. like really, really, really, really happy :)

this song, is self-explanatory. hi hi.

i'll be lovin' you long time
i... i'll be lovin' i'll be lovin' i'll be lovin' i'll be lovin'
i'll be lovin' i'll be lovin' i'll be lovin' you

you ain't even gotta worry about a thing i gotcha babe
and ain't nobody takin' me away
it's not a game i'm here to stay
see our love is stronger than any drug
addictive just can't get enough
and every time i'm with you i want some more
just close the door and let's explore each other

long as i know you got me
i'll be loving you long time (as i can breathe)
i'll be loving you long time (eternally)
there's no stopping you and me
i'll be loving you long time (as i can breathe)
i'll be loving you long time (eternally)

don't care what no one has to say
they don't understand us like we do
i need you near me night and day
together there ain't nothin' we can't do
scoop me up and we can go
to that little spot where no one knows
spend a little time just us alone
you can caress my body and never let go

long as i know you got me
i'll be loving you long time (as i can breathe)
i'll be loving you long time (eternally)
there's no stopping you and me
i'll be loving you long time (as i can breathe)
i'll be loving you long time (eternally)

don't want another ain't gon' never be another
can't nobody do what you do to me
don't want another ain't gon' never be another
can't nobody do what you do to me
don't want another ain't gon' never be another
can't nobody do what you do to me
i'll be loving you as long as i can breathe

long as i know you got me
i'll be loving you long time (as i can breathe)
i'll be loving you long time (eternally)
there's no stopping you and me
i'll be loving you long time (as i can breathe)
i'll be loving you long time (eternally)

- [i'll be loving you long time - mariah carey]

p/s: ha aku mellow dan mushy. so what? i don't care!

LOVE

Songs
Album My happy life by Tom-pi ada lagu L-O-V-E. Aku dah dengar versionnya mula-mula masa LnL Jazz session last year. Tapi aku lagi prefer Natalie Cole yang dendang. Lebih seksi lebih soul.

Movie
Love pada aku tak sampai sangat macam CINTA. Tapi sinetografi dua-dua bagus. Paling aku suka scene mula-mula kat padang ke sawah ntah. Comel sangat. Dalam banyak-banyak aku suka watak budak kecik as Autistic child. She great!
Aku tengah perah otak ingat balik quote dalam filem LOVE yang ditutur oleh Rama pada Iin (feeling2 nama gwe sebab skali imbas baca substitle nampak macam nama gwe hahahahah).

Bunyi maksudnya lebih kurang
"Kita tak boleh putus asa hari ini, kerna esok tidak tahu lagi apa yang akan terjadi"

Kiranya skrip ganti tuturan sharifah A'mani pada Pi*erre An*dre
"Kalau kita nak mesti ada cara"

Kawan aku kata pada aku, love punya miraclenya sendiri. Dan kita perlu percaya pada itu.
Miracle ek mek?? Kalau sembur perfume miracle hari-hari peratusan miracle tu meningkat tak?? hahahahahah

i promise

will i always be there for you. when you need someone. will i be that one you need. will I do all my best to to protect you. when the tears get near your eyes. will i be the one that's by your side.

will i be there when you call me in the middle of the night. will i keep the rain from fallin down into your life. i promise, i promise. i promise i will..

will i take tender care of you. take your darkest night. and make it bright for you. will i be there to make you strong. and to lean on. when this world has turned so cold. will i be the one that's there to hold.

will i be there when you call me in the middle of the night. will i keep the rain from falling down into your life. i promise, i promise. i promise, i promise. i promise i will, yeah.

and i love you more every day. and nothing will take that love away. when you need someone. i'll promise i'll be there for you. there for you..

will i be there when you call me in the middle of the night. will i keep the rain from falling down into your life. i promise, i promise. i promise i will..

- [i. p.r.o.m.i.s.e. - staci oricco]

i do. and i promise.

:)

.mad.sexy.cool.is.us.

oh god. it's 1 a.m. and i am trying to crack my head real hard here so that i can finish my work and go to sleep (plus it's raining and cold, oh my *sigh*).

some of us, yes, are not at our best. and some of us, hmm, are pretending real hard to be at our best. well, one way or another, prozac seems to be a very good idea at this moment, am i wrong?

nah. just a stupid late-night joke.

but just look at us now, girls. we've grown up, facing whatever there is in our lives, hoping for the best out of it and we're back on track. i know. we're those women who can never possibly end our drama just like that. you know what i mean?

every each of us. i swear that we're like in a movie or something :p. not sex & the city. though i would kill anything to have carrie's manolo blahnik. hi hi. we're just women; with needs, dreams, expectations & love.

it's ok to fall in love. or even to fall out of love. it happens. it's ok to fail in life, as success actually comes from it. it's ok if you suck in doing what you do. and it sure is ok if people just don't get us. i mean hey, never in a million years, they will find other women like us. that's why we're stuck with each other :p (ok la tu kan? hihihi)

my point is, don't worry. for every tragedy that befalls on each of us, we're going to make it. have faith. everything takes time. we just have to lay back, keep being ourselves, keep smiling and insyaAllah.. if it's God's will, the table will turn. mark my word :)

truth to be told, i fall into that 'pretending' category. because i've promised myself not to get carried away with my emotions. gonna stay cool no matter what. walaupun kegelabahan tu tetap menjadi trademark. hahahahahahaha!

korang jangan sedih-sedih ek. kita kan ada. nanti kita bawak korang makan eskrem.

ok lah. kerja tak siap-siap lagi. dah la takde idea. mata dah berat. katil dah panggil-panggil. esok konfem muka hancur. mata menjadi semakin sepet. adeh..

I'M NOT PERFECT! BUT I'M SPECIAL

Pakcik-pakcik yang drive cab kat area rumah aku memang bess. Bukan je memudahkan aku dengan bayaran cab yg murah dan untungkan mereka, tapi bila berborak dengan mereka ada saja yang buat aku berfikir, ingatkan aku mengenai sesuatu dan lawak-lawak mereka yang buat aku gelak kecil datang tepat pada masa-masa yang memang aku perlukan.

Aku tidur malam tadi dengan marah dan hati yang agak sebal.
Aku bangun pagi tadi dengan mood yang macam puaka celanat.
Seriously, tiada palit senyum walau sedicit.

Naik cab seperti biasa.

"Dek, pintu tak rapat"
Aku buka dan hempas pintu kuat
"Takpe takyah takut hempas je kuat-kuat, tak minum pagi lagi kan?"
"A'aa memang betul sangat pakcik"
Dia gelak aku gelak.
Tak kelakar pada kau yang baca, tapi cukup la bagi aku yang berangin.
Sekurang-kurangnya angin lintang kurang sedikit.
Terima kasih pakcik driver teksi!!!

*****
Dear,

I'm not prefect. I'm just normal person who struggle to full fill ur wish, desire and pleasure. I do work hard on it. For you, for me, for both of us. But U turn me off when every day you keep criticizes me. U really, really, really, really, really turn off me baby.

I'm good in karma but I dont want to do it at you. Coz I'm sure U'll regret it. So Please accept who I am as I do accept you. Coz FYI, I'm looking for TALL, DARK AND HANDSOME. But I end up stuck on you. Give me one bloody reason why should I stay rather than walk away from you!

p/s: mind my word and honesty. Coz I damn tired with ur words.

Their happy life

Saya dapat call.
Muke best boyfren no 1 terpapar.
Macam biasa suara garau, tapi kali ini sikit lain.
Macam ada sedikit hiba. Saya berdebar.
Mungkin terasa janggal dia cuba berjenaka.
Saya gelak macam biasa.
Dia tambah lagi.


"Ko baru jadik makcik, dah tak bleh kak lin dah"



Baby boy. 11 pagi 21 Apr 08.
Hiba dia pindah pada saya melalui talian telefon.
Saya senyum dalam hiba. I'm happy for him.
Tapi saya tak tau napa saya hiba. Masih lagi rasa.

Congrats To Inspektor Sahab Wad and Ms Eja Wad.

My pray for their happinest come from each breath of mine.

*****

I found that love was more

Than just holding hands...

Could u pls make me understand what's going on rite now! Coz I'm starting to feel tired.

wasiat *bluekkk*

Hello!

My dearest good+great friends, I'm happy to see both of you happy. Eh, including kak Amyz... so it'll be the 3 of you lah kan? Hehehe... sorry kak Amyz ;) Ampun!

Kak Amyz, saya tidak tahu apa yang berlaku. Tapi saya dapat rasakan sesuatu. Apa pun jua situasi yang akak hadapi sekarang ini, saya doakan agar semuanya selamat. Be strong! Hidup ini tidak akan indah tanpa warna-warni pelangi cabaran dan dugaan. Anggap sahaja pengalaman ini sebagai pembakar semangat untuk lebih berani dan tabah! Hey, good luck for your final exam!

Cik Blur Clairvoyance, aku harap kau bahagia dengan pilihan hidup kau. You know that I'll always pray for you happiness, right? ;) Ala, kalau setakat gaduh-gaduh sikit tu, janganlah freak-out gegila plak. Aku tahu kita ni drama queen, but don't be soooo dramatic! Heheheh... Kau tu, kalau dia tanya soalan pelik-pelik je mulalah gelabah macam labah-labah *bluekk*

Cik Butterflyb.l.u, hehehehe... the same goes with you. I'll always pray for you happiness! Jangan selalu gaduh dengan... you know who. Nanti awak juga yang stress, kan? Awak tahukan, stress tak elok untuk kesihatan mental awak! Hahaha...

Oklah, korang... I'm going to Kulim for the whole week! Starting today (April 21) until April 27. Pastu kan, korang jangan jeles tau... kalau jadi lah kan, kan, kan... 2 - 4 Mei, I'll be in Perhentian, continue 5 - 9 Mei pula kat Berserah, Cherating! *Lalalala...*

Signing Off!

17 days of love

dearest you,

tak apa lah kalau you tak perfect. if semua orang dalam dunia ni perfect, maknanya angga or reymee tu kat hujung jari i jelah. and i'm no angelina jolie or nicole kidman pun.

but trust me, if perfection is all i seek, i won't be saying how i feel about you in the first place. and love is a cosmic thing. that, i know for sure.

i have never been this precise tau. the next step is totally your call. any other way pun is fine with me. and for the whole entire journey of mine last night, while listening to that maliq's song, i saw only one face in my head and it made me smile and smile and smile.

to tell you the truth, this is the sort of conversation that i usually avoid because huh.. hmm. i'm not that fond of admitting what i feel. in this case, lagi laaaaaa.

so yeah. never say that this is going to be easy but since it's the path that i choose to walk on, i better gear up for every season then - be it winter, summer, autumn or fall. or you nak tambah apa-apa season ribut tahap petala kelapan? silakan. he he.

it's ok if you don't feel the same way. you still make me smile no matter what. and that's what matters :)

i may not know you thru-and-thru but what i know for now is enough for me to see how incredible you are. other people may not see you the same way so tu lantak la kat diorang kan. my story anyway hahahaha gila eksyen :p

how long this will last? for as long as it's there. kalau i'm going through this by myself, sooner or later i'll have to let you go and move on. if vice versa, hehehehe insya-Allah. tersengih-sengih la i hari-hari.

love. is weird. haih.

by the way, macam biasa, happy becoming birthday. you are in my prayer. always..

18 days of love

what is it that i hate most?

to actually fall in love and to believe that love is in fact beautiful, regardless whether it's a one-way or a two-way thing.

you don't have to love me back. to love you is like painting the world with beautiful colors. i don't feel hurt at all because everything is so perfect.

and so are you :)

please, dig this song.

[dia - maliq & d'essentials]

temukan apa arti di balik cerita
hati ini terasa berbunga-bunga
membuat seakan aku melayang terbuai asmara.. oh

adakah satu arti di balik tatapan
tersipu malu akan sebuah senyuman
membuat suasana menjadi nyata
begitu indahnya..

dia..
seperti apa yang selalu ku nantikan, aku inginkan

dia.. oh
melihatku apa adanya, seakan ku sempurna

tanpa bual kata tercuri hatiku
dia tunjukkan dengan tulus cintanya
terasa berbeda saat bersamanya
aku jatuh cinta..

dia..
seperti apa yang selalu ku nantikan, aku inginkan

dia..
melihatku apa adanya, seakan ku sempurna

dia..
seperti apa yang selalu ku nantikan, aku inginkan

dia..
melihatku apa adanya, seakan ku sempurna

dia bukakan pintu hatiku yang lama tak bisa
percayakan cinta hingga dia di sini
memberi cintaku harapan

dia..
seperti apa yang selalu ku nantikan, aku inginkan

oh dia..
melihatku apa adanya, seakan ku sempurna

dia..
seperti apa yang selalu ku nantikan, aku inginkan

oh dia..
melihatku apa adanya, seakan ku sempurna

give me your love, give me your love now
so come on and love me, come on and love me

give me your love, give me your love now
so come on and love me, come on and love me


(ask me for the song anytime)

I would tell the world when you give your love to me

Dia...Seperti apa yang s’lalu ku nantikan
Aku inginkan
Dia...Melihatku apa adanya
Seakan kusempurna, hey yeah



(Give me your love)(Give me your love)
(Now so come on and love me)
(Come on and love me)(Give me your love)
(Give me your love)

Since Ah Win already mention Maliq & D'Essentials (read as angga) buat dia pengsan(again!) so this the beuty groovy rythm.......

19 days of love

how time flies by.

as for today, no volley ball session (deng!). i was bored that i almost jumped out of the window. entah mengapa aku berkata begitu aku pun tak tau. bengong la ni namanya *sigh*.

but anyway, hehehe, finally i got my hands on the latest CD of maliq & d'essentials called 'repackaged'. huiyo. gila nak pengsan. dah la tinggal satu. ada 2 lagu baru and the first track dah buat aku rasa macam "aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh..". yerp. lepas tu pengsan sekejap. nasib ada lin. hahahaha.

angga. my love..

please la anybody yang nak pergi indon tu, ku kirimi kerinduan eh nak kirim CD maliq & d'essentials semua sekali boleh tak??? boleh aarrrr..

tapikan korang, aku tak tau la apsal aku masih lagi mengalami sindrom kelaparan tak terhingga 2-3 menjak ni. aku rasa luar biasa sangat okeh. ada 'benda halus' kaa dalam perut aku? ke sebab terkenan dek ofismet yang pregnant tu? gila babas!!

nanti aku kaji kemisterian ini. jimbooooooo! *tiba-tiba*.

20 days of love

started the day off by buying nasi lemak, karipap & donuts. yeah. whatever i eat is my own business. ceh gila poyo :p

i feel no love lah today. because i'm drained? yelah kot. where's that bubbly me???? ayoyo come back la. i cannot be like this forever ma. nguap, nguap je kerja. isk. no mood, don't feel like being productive at all, i'm practically a sleepy head. deng.

tu lah pasalnya kena ada 'daya tarikan' untuk ke office. and so far, none is like so gempak gila sampai buat aku rasa macam nak tido opis. hahahahaha.

but to be in cybertron is so damn cool. i like the serenity of cyberjaya. i fell in love with everything here. what more can i ask? hehehe. oh okay, we may need a mcd, starbucks, or perhaps nando's? since me & syuk are crazy about it.

is it a good idea if i buy a house here in cyberjaya? the one facing the lake? macam cool gila kan?

oh. there's still some love today. love for that house :)

21 days of love

well, just as i expected, sometime in the afternoon i was 'needed' in sunway. hahaha poyo je bunyik. betul apa, because there weren't enough network cable lah, switch lah, so i became the runner la kan.

memula lepak with the guys kat subway. then mr. boss called and asked me to watch for his things and some notebooks sebab dia nak lunch with his friend.

dah nguap sejuta kali jugak la. until syuk got a call. bla bla bla, suddenly syuk said, "ha nanti h**** naik". uik. itu pun nak bagitau aku ek. tapi dalam hati memang lah sedikit excited. hahahahaha.

so, mr. bachelor number one arrived shortly after. pastu i don't remember how both of us just sat outside the hall, talking and chatting about some stuff. about his girlfriend, football, macam-macam lah. it was great. but then only i knew that he is a year younger than me. oh. hmm. okay.

the workshop went so well, that i could see my boss' face lighten up. he needs that badly as for the past week, he was unhappy about some things. kasihan. i thought of leaving early tapi rupanya ada meeting pula selepas itu.

so there i was, having a business meeting on my own for the first 15 minutes (mati tak??). the room was so damn cold, and my boss noticed the 'unwell' look on my face. maunya tak, kuku dah pepel-pepel. i felt like almost pengsan already sebab kesejukan tahap dewa. serious ok. tak drama.

but after that, makan kat tony roma's, terus la sihat kan :p

hmm.. anyway, while i was in sunway, i think bachelor number two must've gone to cybertron. isk. melepas. all this tiring stuff kan, can go away kalau dapat tengok muka dia sekejap. hahahahahahahaha keji tak??? i heard that he has gone botak. mesti cute.

24 days of love

no bachelor today. hangout dengan laki orang ada la. which was also fun. penat aku gelak tak benti-benti. bengong itu olang!

bestnya kalau tau main stratocaster kan.

ok dah ngantuk.

still 25 days of love

latest update.

bachelor number one - dah ada girlfren (deng.).
bachelor number two - suka perempuan rupa macam wardina (ceh!).

ok. mana laa bachelor number three, four, five.. *sigh*

25 days of love

hari jumaat yang sangat jumaat. lapar je rasa. pagi-pagi dah hujan. hehe.

tak sangka pulak bachelor number one datang office aku tadi. tokojuit den. hehehe. tapi masa siang tu memang dia busy je buat kerja depan pc. kerja aku langsung takleh nak buat sebab satu, aku sakit kepala dah berhari-hari. dua, aku rasa malas sangat tak tau la apsal. tiga, kenapa perut aku asyik lapar je ek? hahahaha sadis.

si *ez* (bukan nama sebenar) tak habis-habis usik aku. apa la. tah-tah mamat tu dah ada girlfriend. worse, dah kahwin pun. tak baik tau.

so aku dok bergugel jela dgn *ez*, gelak macam setan, gedik-gedik nak mampos. sumpah aku tekanan perasaan sebenarnya sebab tu jadi macam tu kot?

dah petang, aku vakum ofis sebab esok ada training. wah rajin ni. hehe. ekceli dok tunggu jugak kalau-kalau bachelor number two datang ke tapi tinggal harapan jelaaahhh..

pastu semua orang balik. aku pun dah siap calling-calling lin, nak ajak pergi mid valley. last-last kena cancel sebab bachelor number one & kawan aku tak ada kunci ofis. yelah. aku tunggu la korang. aku tukar baju sebab dah rimas pakai baju kurung, siap buat air, aku eksperimenkan biskut empat segi dengan menabur milo di atasnya dan bagi depa makan.

ha masa tu baru dapat interbiu dia. ehem. ok tak kawin lagi. tapi takan la takde gf ye tak? ringtone henpon dia lagu peberet aku. cewah. pastu borak-borak pasal keje, bla bla bla, pastu pulang.

adeh. ok la kan. mamat tu tinggi gila ok. kagum aku. hahahaha!

26 days of love

ehem ehem.

kitorang ada sports activity lepas kerja tadi so of course la seronok kan. hehe. we played volley ball walaupun aku langsung lah tak reti main. harem jek. hahaha. tetapi, ehem ehem, i was in the same team as bachelor number two.

peh and he was so damn good.
aku macam kagum.
dan terpesona (what the??!!).
hahahahaha.

and of course, our team won. wuhu!

lepas main, a few of us went for lepak dan minum kat terminal. ha including mr. bachelor number two. alahai.. his eyes were like so deep and bila dia tengok kita rasa macam terbakar (hahaha ok this part i exaggerate la kan).

dia tak la hensem but the way he carries himself is just so attractive in a way. patut la dia jejaka hot kat office.

dah la belanja kami minum tadi. hihihi. takpelah. aku ngoratkan untuk si d.n. la ek. macam sesuwai je. kih kih kih.

27 days of love

since tak ada bachelor yang available hari ni, so tak payah la cerita panjang-panjang. huhuhu.

28 days of love

now, now, now. bachelor number one did come to the office today. hehe. and he was so handsome. cewah. getik dah aku ni. tak borak sangat pun since he was working with something but i managed to buat kopi o untuk dia. hahaha.

but at the end of the day, came bachelor number two. jeng jeng jeng.

ok, i never really noticed him before sebab dia macam sangat penyengap, buat kerja sendiri and the only time that i spoke to him was when i wanted to borrow his lighter. dah tu terlupa sampai sudah, dah petang baru pulangkan. sheesh.

so yeah, he tegur me masa lunch kat cafe. blur jugak la aku sekejap kan. pastu petang sikit macam dia pun dah ok, mesra, and baru perasan yang mulut dia kinda sexy. adeh. sorry but i am telling the truth okay. he's so mysterious. menakutkan pun yer jugak kekadang tu.

tapi rupanya ramai juga perempuan-perempuan single di office ku ini yang berkenan sama ini olang. ceh. amik la. aku tak mau pun. tapi siyes dia sexy. nyam nyam.

itulah dia sedikit sebanyak pada hari ini. yey!

29 days of love

bachelor number one had gone to the other office. hahaha. what a joke! but thank God or else you-know-who would've definitely ejek-ejek dan siap nak ngoratkan untuk aku. cis. ada jugak orang macam ni ek (:p).

my shoes were killing me. and it just had to be today that i have to go grocery shopping untuk pantry office. baik tak aku? huuuu. dah la mid valley tu tempat aku paling trauma nak pergi sebab aku mesti lufer kat mana aku parking kereta. deng.

eh, before that, sempat la jumpa kak sempoii kat amcorp.

so okay, kembali ke rumah dengan selamat, and while i was trying to unload the things that i bought from the car, eh eh terjatuh puler kunci keretaku itu. lalu tiba-tiba terdengar suara manusia memecah kesunyian..

"hai kak! baru balik keje?".

ceh. dah tau tanya lagi. nasib ko ni comel. hahaha.

pastu ada la sedikit sebanyak dialog getik (dia ok, bukan aku). siap offer nak tolong bawakkan barang-barang aku la bagai. hahahaha wat derr heyyll??

hmm. first time ada actual conversation dengan jiran sebelah. bukan sebab sombong, dah derang tu bujang-bujang belaka, aku kan pemalu (ptuih!).

tapi betul laa. dia comel okay! (keji!)

30 days of love

a few acquaintances were complaining about me walling myself from men. am i? *confused*. indirectly je kot.

alright. i'll try to open up myself and let other people in.
after all, happiness is not a one-way thing kan?
this should be fun *ayat sedapkan hati*.

tomorrow, bachelor number one is coming to the office. we'll see if this really works. ya rabbi! bachelor number two, three, four nanti kita cari kat cafe ek. hahahaha.

bonus points to those who can actually sing all the songs from the 'sound of music'. and he better be straight.

*giggles*